Steak-Over On Penny Street

Exorcised my excess pounds twice this week by way of running/jogging.  My head-case-worker (out patient therapist of sorts) who happens to be an aspiring health guru advised 3x or more a week.  I walked to the video store that happens to be located roughly within my neighborhood since I had a free movie coupon and rented DEAD MAN WALKING (1996), which I have not seen and have no excuses thereof.

Me and my Mom had a nice villa time at historic downtown Cape Girardeau, starting with Cup & Cork, and ending with a failed attempt to smash the windows of an antique store.  Damn communist businessman, who do they think they are shoving their charity cases in the American consumers' face like that?  They're closed b/c it's Memorial Day weekend??!!!!!  LISTEN UP SMALL TIME PAWNEES:  CONSUMERISM IS NOT YOURS TO MODERATE!  I mean, I know they own the store and they have a right to a evening/night off, but for crying out loud, they sell junk that nobody has any real need for.  If they're going to thrive on the illness of people not having any sense of priority in their life, then why not go all the way?  I guess they might be struggling awful much with the economy the way it is, so they can't hire very many if any cashiers to keep the place in operation while death takes a holiday...

So we did the only sensible thing we could - we went to Menard's and did a second round of pesticide shopping.  We'll still need to do a 3rd round, b/c flea foggin'bombs are too expensive for us at the moment, as we are laying out the last of our money for the month.  My mom found some wasp killer that claims to kill on contact.  I found a wasp tucked in between the outer and inner pannels of one of the basement windows.  The window, the outer end, was partly broken to shikinzzit, and so I just broke off some more of it and the wasp came flying out.  Thankfully it either didn't notice me to an extent where it saw a desire/need to beat the wisp out of me OR (perhaps this isn't in line with realism, idk, I'm no entomologist[wow, I got the spelling right on try1--yee!]) it was thankful for its release and knew who was due for thanks.  Now I have something other than a flimsy piece of plastic to protect myself with when the wasp REALLY IS inside the building.  The real crazy supernatural freaky deaky thing is it only cost $0.97 (plus MO sales tax).

Dinner for tonight was a Wal-Mart "Steak Over".  It was a decent amount of steak for $9, but a far cry from the best steak I've ever had.  If I can ever afford to go to an actual steakhouse I'm sure I might even have had a better steak AGAIN.  I rarely order steak tho.  A lot of the time it tastes like pork chops, much like the one I had tonight - all chewwy with little to no tenderness.  And I don't bother complaining at a restaurant.  I'll tell them if I need something in addition to what I'm getting, but for food I ordered and had to wait 30 minutes to eat, I'm not going to taste it, wait for the waiter to ask how it is or give me the opportunity to tell them, and then wait for it to be modified with the HOPE that it turns out OK the second time.

I ordered Men At Work's pop-masterpiece BUSINESS AS USUAL on May 16th from BetterWorldBooks via the Amazon Marketplace.  Still waiting for its arrival, which won't be until Tuesday at the earlist.  God Almighty, PLEASE let it show up on Tuesday!!!  I don't even know what my problem is.  If I want to listen to it I can go to Grooveshark or subscribe to Rdio when I get a few bucks...only downside to that is my energy hoggin 'computer needs to be on, and I'm strongly opposed to having my computer on while I sleep, which is kinda what I bought it for, since it goes good with the pre-slumber state of mind. I feel bad enough my old school "standard" def TV is on most nights while I sleep --my energy bill would be wonderously reduced if the TV had an off timer that I could activate and maybe there is one somewhere within the TV's chips but my Gramma, who gave the TV to me when my Dynex LCD died out, does not know where the remote is or if it ever had one.

Hoping my sister can pay for half of my mother's birthday present, to be ordered no later than July 2nd.  Her b-day is several days after that, but without the $20 off coupon code there is no way in heck I can afford it.  It's just clothing, which I admit she probably has too much of b/c she buys everything on clearance that isn't ugly if she happens to have a few bucks, but it occurred to me while I was talking to my Gramma a couple weeks back that as disgusted as I am with the mind-blowing profitiability of the clothing industry that I really do not own enough clothes.  I mean, wow; I sound like a transvestite right about now, but I really do feel like I wear the same shirt every other day.  I prolly don't need a whole closet full of 'em, but I could use about 5 more shirts and a few pairs of shorts.  I have shorts but they really accentuate the short in shorts.  I mean, they're not daisy dukes or whatever, but they look like soccer shorts.  Fat sickos like me do not need to be wearing soccer shorts.  Nor do I need to be reminded of all the mocking laughter circa high school pertaining to the shade of white that my legs are
  My ideal pants would be these ones that Hot Topic had back in 2002 that I could not afford then and still cannot afford.  I don't remember what they looked like in any significant detail.  I remember they were frippin' HUGE and black, and thus probably NOT appropriate for the current season & the days immediately most likely ahead.  I think I actually have plenty of pants, I just need to get off the damm computer and get 'em washed when they start getting low in availability.  I also need a belt that doesn't stick; it's actually my Mom's belt; a chore to put on like all belts, but an even bigger chore to take off b/c whereas it should be a smooth glide, the belt keeps getting caught on the loops.  I need to get a belt.  The cheapest one that Wal-Mart had circa 2005 was $10 and it lasted less than a year.
  The real clincher for the stuff my Mom wants is I deduced that knitting accessories are not a priority for her b/c she spends very little time knitting.  I know she likes music, but she has a wall full of CDs that she never listens to.  She also LOVES food.  So: I was going to get her some sugar free chocolate that is currently on her Amazon wish list.  She says she wants the clothing more than the chocolate.  She's a chocolate addict who wants clothing more than chocolate?  OK then.
  If my sister can't pay for half, I do think I just barely have enough to pay for the whole thing, which serves me right if I need to do that since I'm the only one who completely blew off Mother's Day.  My grandfather sent her $50 and my sister's (soon2BX-)husband has leeched her dry but she still managed to scrounge up $20 for Mother's Day + $7 for a super-grand Mother's Day greeting card.

Anyhoo...I have very little on my wishlist, if you can believe it.  There's a couple movies I'd like to buy sooner or later as they are not available for rent.  There's a rare (ltd ed) DVD from 2012 that's already out of print, of a film from 1969 called CHANGES that might or might not be up my alley.  And David Cronenberg's RABID (1977). I do like pretty much all of Cronenberg's earlyish films.  SHIVERS (1975), THE BROOD (1979), SCANNERS (1981), VIDEODROME (1982), THE FLY (1986), and probably some that I've forgotten.  I think eXistenZ (1999) is probably his WORST film, and I don't care much for COSMOPOLIS (2012), and the people raving about how A HISTORY OF VIOLENCE (2004) is a contemplative analysis of the nature of violence must be on LSD; the only thing in the film that resonates as a meaningful examination of violence's nature is the aspect of the film where Mortensen's character and his wife are squalling and his wife insists that he is [insert dramatic damnation] even after he so eloqently voices his defense for his actions.  And that's stretching it; being piaaed off at somebody is not generally considered violence.  The sad but ultimately true fact of life is that the most effective way to retaliate in a life or death situation is to fight by the enemy's playbook.  Mortensen's character **MIGHT** have been overly drastic in his method of ending the reign of terror in his diner, but he didn't ask for that reign of terror ane he certainly didn't ask for his life-of-crime past to come calling.  The film was indeed interesting, but ultimately had nothing to offer aside from that.  I also didn't care much for A DANGEROUS METHOD (2011), but then again I've grown rather impatient with movies in general.  I might try to watch it again....

My apologies Tobe

I don't know how I did that.  It is now fixed as of a few seconds prior to typing this sentence, but I forgot to include it initially, so who knows what other freakin' great films I forgot to include?

Oh, I didn't forget to include FORREST GUMP.  I just didn't put it in there, because even though its a very moving film, I tend to look back on it with confusion, wondering "what the heck is that movie about anyway?"  I suppose it's more about innocence in an age that was so clearly not innocent; perhaps speaking to the hopes and dreams of those who particpated and lived through the social and inner rioting that blasted through cities and families and individual human beings from 1965-1975 and lived on as more of a vibration afterward that never stopped and that most never noticed after spending so many years entrenched in a tug-of-war for free speech and democracy.
But I Really don't know what the film means to most people, as I am not most people and I'm a little crazy if that wasn't already obvious.  I certainly don't know what if anything the writer(s) of the film were trying to convey.  Winston Groom's novel, from the little bit I've read regarding it, seems to be more of a satire of some kind rather than a profound tearjerker...at least that was what one of the pro-critics thought of the novel, per the "PRAISE FOR FORREST GUMP" excerpts on the back of one of the editions I either bought or borrowed from the library.  So I'm pretty sure the writer of the film was using the book as a blueprint with little regard to what Mr. Groom had in mind when he wrote it, however obvious it may or may not have been to anyone who read it.  An Amazon reviewer spoke of the line "Life is like a box of chocolates..." as "re-working" of a line in the book which states "Being an idiot is no box of chocolates", which, to me, sounds rather condescending, and the first few lines of the book (the only part I read for myself) seem rather mean-spirited, although that may have been me just trying to put context to a book that I hadn't read enough of to really have any idea what the context was.
But given the fact that I'm not really planning on watching the film again anytime soon, which is more b/c of the fact that I remember almost everything about it more so than any idealogical criticisisms I might have, so I think my criticisms regarding the movie have more to do with boredom; I can't watch the movie so therefore I have to have make up the movie in my mind which, in this case, really doesn't benefit the movie b/c the movie is like a visit to a foreign land, but once you come back home to the life you've spent x years living, the sensation of being there is gone with nothing to revive it, and you end up with an increasingly distorted memory of it, which leads to half truths and innacurate assumptions.  Maybe that's not the average experience, idk...but anyway...
So I'll probably add FORREST GUMP to the list once I'm done writing this.
But there's really no reason to have excluded THE TEXAS CHAINSAW MASSACRE.  It's a highly effective and artfully executed film that is so simple in nature that there is nothing to falsely remember in it or question the meaning of.

My Favorite Movies

Someone asked me if my favorite movie was GHOSTBUSTERS, seeing as I was wearing a shirt with the GB logo.  It's hard to answer.  It's a movie that I grew up with, been watching it since the age of one(?), and it's easy to re-watch after all these years.

But is that the definition of one's favorite movie?  It's not what I would consider THE BEST MOVIE, or even "one of" the best movies.  It's perfect fodder for those whose minds wander, but I really don't find much comic relief in it and I'm not moved within by it.

THE BEST MOVIES

Being There (1979)
Candyman (1992)
A Clockwork Orange (1971)
Dolores Claiborne (1995)
End Of Days (1999)
Forrest Gump (1994)
The Green Mile (1999)
Groundhog Day (1993)
Heathers (1989)
Hellraiser (1987)
Liar Liar (1997)
nowhere (1997)
Requiem For A Dream (2000)
The Sixth Sense (1999)
Taxi Driver (1976)
The Texas Chainsaw Massacre (1974)

Sister Christian

My sister is such a wreck; her low self-esteem etc. has driven her to near-suicide.  She is the kindest person I know, which amazes me b/c I am so not.  I am not one to volunteer my time in large qtys and I am quick to make certain I am exhonorated of any accusations that are flown my way.  Which makes me wonder; is my sister trying to work her low-self esteem away by being ultra-nice, or are do the two traits operate as two seperate entities, independant of one another?  I would ask her, but if she says the former, would I really be satisfied?  It's a horror to think that all good deeds stem from tragedy or the potential thereof, at least in my opinion.  Of course, I think it's a tragedy that mankind is wandering lost in this planet and, for the most part, will someday walk right into a bottomless bowl of pain and suffering that will never cease.  One of these horrors is undeniably true, as evidenced in The Holy Bible and the secular evidence that backs it up.  The other one might be, but I don't know; I ordered an NIV (Pew) Bible on Amazon a couple months back, but I've only read like 7 pages of Genesis and 6 pages of John.  Last night I read about 8 pages of Clive Barker's THE INHUMAN CONDITION, which is soooo not The Bible...I tried to make the situation more acceptable by putting on the GHOSTBUSTERS ORIGINAL SOUNDTRACK ALBUM, which is the soundtrack album to a movie that isn't entirely biblical either, but, IMO, captures the essence of the horror genre of fictional storytelling without getting downright heathenistic, although its references to Peagan religious icons etc. can certainly cause a few eyebrows to go up.  In the 1999 retrospective from the "Collector's Series" DVD, he says something about prophecies being fulfilled soon, but I don't know if he's talking about The Bible's prophecies or what, and if he is talking about biblical prophecies, I don't know if that necessarily makes him a Christian, but I don't even know if I technically classify as a Christian.  As far as I am consciously aware, I do not know God, I do not bow to him, I don't love him, I don't even know everything he most likely wants me to know b/c I do not invest hardly any time reading his word, and I certainly don't sin any less than I used to.  And I have not even been baptized, unless you count that time I was dunked in water at Cape Bible Chapel and then turned my back on The Holy Spirit and the accompanying scriptures.  So what does it matter if I read THE INHUMAN CONDITION or not?  And not only that, aside from Clive Barker's gutter-mind and homosexual lifestyle, I have no reason to believe that he's NOT a Christian.  I did read awhile back that he spent some#of years coming to terms with his sexuality, but that may have been b/c he was raised by Christians or otherwise homophobic people and he inherited that sense of disgust that a lot of st8ts have for gay people.
Anyway, I guess my point is I'm not very knowledgable about what vs. whatnot, and I've been unwisely doing (too) little to change that.
But...um...maybe I had something else to say and forgot what it was....maybe I'll post it tomorrow.
SNIPS:  My diet is not improving, at least not that I can tell, although I have been trying...if I hadn't eaten mediocre chocolate mousse yesterday, I **MIGHT** have been OK for that day, but whose to say my bananas that I ate today would not have disappeared early?  And I'm kinda flunking on my exercise routine-assembly.  I think I've gotten like 2? days of exercise this week, maybe tomorrow it'll go up to 3...My mom is hoping to be first in line, or somewhat close to the front of, to receive some much needed dental care from some gathering of dentistry for the orally hopeless who are hopelessly poor.  Here's hoping she can be home before (or no later than?!!) noon and stay awake until about 5pm and maybe wake up around 7 or 8 the next day...without being in agony of biblical proportions from stress via waiting and her complicatedly delicate body that can't conform to one physical position for too long without pain being caused and of course the dental work itself.....and whatever else might cause her pain as a result of the visit.....I have a suspicion it's gonna be a grueling and bumpy next few days...
I still haven't figured out what I **MIGHT** have forgotten to add to this post.  Whatever...

~JWC

Thou Shalt Not Kilt, Except...

I've consumed 4 servings of 100% Pure Maple Syrup in the past 5 days...maybe.
I **tried** to combine a little bit of Sugar Free syrup and some Lite syrup with it, so I might still have a couple servings dispersed in various parts of the container that says it contains Lite syrup on the label.
So...let's see...
PMS has 52 carbs and the LS has 25 carbs (both mostly sugar!!!!), so that's 52 x 3?? (not sure how evenly divided they are, so here's hopin'....) = 156 w/ 25 = 181 divided by (no weird symbol thingy on my keyboard - !!!!) 5 = uh...just a sec (division is where doing math on paper gets tricky for me...actually, "long math" (is that what it's called?  Where you have 3 digit #s multiplying themselves?  Ugh...) is where my skills end...and then past division I have no skill whatsoever other than a fundamental understanding of fractions......ANYWAY:.......::: let's see: YO!  36.2; may as well round it up to 37.
Plus roughly 63 ? carbs from Fiber One pancakes = 100 carbs, plus 50 cards rice and 30 carbs from coffee w/ creamer etc. and hot chocolate and little odds like that, plus...eh...what have I been eating lately?  Oatmeal and cream of what mainly, not usually in the same day unless I don't have rice...what would that be if you average it out?  Mmm....FORTY!  Ok, so I've been eating under 250 carbs a day...which is probably double what I should eat
BUT
I've been doing more in the exercise dept.
SQUATS!
PUSHUPS (well, sorta;....I do "hand release pushups", I think...not sure if I do them right...I alternate from those to whatever those wussie pushups where you just hang in the air and move yourself up and down.....em...anyway)
And I've been jogging as of yesterday.  I jogged for...uh...I wrote it down, I'm too lazy to go and look.  today it was almost four minutes interspersed with 30? minutes of walking.  I walked a lot less yesterday; about 10 minutes....or less.....arg...idk...!!!
Here's hoping someday I'll look like this guy


"is that all?"
Uh...I qualified for a SECOND $5 Amazon gift card this month!
I already got my 1st one yesterday or the day b4...I think it was Thursday...today's Saturday...I keep saying "uh"...the joke isn't funny anyomore is it?
It was really cool; I got like 200 Swagbucks just from doing web searches instead of going directly to the home page URL, and small things like that, and then I bought this coffee which the makers of apparently think is God's gift to the people who sell it 'cause it's soooooooooooo good you can't pass it up, so they're offering it free + $2.95 S&H.  So: I paid $2.95 S&H for God's coffee, and got 340 Swagbucks, which pushed me WAY over what I needed to get a $5 Amazon gift card, so I STILL have 250 Swagbucks, which is over half of what's needed to get a $5 Amazon gift card.
My 1st GC for April I used to get Brand New's DEJA ENTENDU, since I had already bought a similar CD that is equally good titled TELL ALL YOUR FRIENDS by Taking Back Sunday, and I figured if I wasn't going to treat all truly awesome music equally, then there was no point in accepting my mistake in giving special treatment to TBS' debut by way of keeping it around, but the thing is I don't need to buy anything; I have all I really need; a newer TV would be nice, but I don't have quite the money to buy one w/o saving up, and I don't need to buy a TV anyhow; I don't want to save up all my money anyhow, since it's not economically wise; I used to tell myself it was illegal to save up my money, but now TVs are so darn cheap, they really are in reach if I were to save up **ALL** of my non-bill-going money until I could afford one.  I am thinking of doing that, but I'd like to disperse my money a little wider than that since I do like shopping and like I said, it would be a slight downer for the economy if I and everyone else on welfare just saved up their money instead of spending it (window shopping is all good, but it gets annoying if I'm not going to buy something once in awhile).
I've been listening to my trusty old music quite a bit lately...my reliable musical buds are INVISIBLE TOUCH and THE WAY WE WALK Vols 1& 2 by Genesis and NOTHING TO FEAR and SKELETONS IN THE CLOSET by Oingo Boingo.  A lot of other music I do like hearing, but it gets old fast; I hardly ever listen to the same emo or pop-punk/new wave/classic rock CD twice in the same 3 day span.  I guess late winter to mid spring is when I revert to what works the most the most.  The rest of the year I'm feverishly searching for something new and exciting to listen to and rarely find it.  The last few days I've been listening to Gentle Giant's OCTOPUS.  I really ought to buy that one.  I would say I should have bought it a loooong time ago since I did download it from limewire several years ago, but the price is so relentlessly steep I think I have a good enough excuse.  Granted, the domestic Sony edition with lousy sound quality and stupid looking cover art did get reissued as a "budget" CD, that one is now out of print and so is the prior pre-budget CD-era edition that Sony was distributing.  I think it's available as a domestic CD nowadays, but since Gentle Giant is an obscure band and the people in this town I live in are kinda dumb, what are the odds of me finding it in Cape other than 1in0?  The price for that one on the Amazon Marketplace is $16 w/ S&H.  It's $13.99 w/ free S&H if I add items costing $11.01 or more to my shopping cart alongside it.  Without the free shipping, that $13.99 turns into $17.98 which is more than the MSRP(!!).

I got my The Literary Guild book club purchase requirement fulfilled a couple weeks ago.  My mom gave me the money b/c she's just cool like that.  I didn't have any interest in the books TLG has to offer, so I bought two copies of Neil Gaiman's THE SANDMAN and two copies of Kathy Reich's 3rd book in the Virals series.  All but one of the Reich books has sold, reeling me apprx$16.75 for now, which means I lost about $10 from joining.  It would have been less than that but I made some stupid selections when I signed up and picked $15 worth of "free" books; I ordered two copies of Stephen King's IT, one of which I was thinking I'd keep, the other I for some EXTREMELY stupid reason(!!!!) sold to The Book Rack and I ordered a half outdated club-exclusive calander, which, before it became outdated, was worth quite a bit @ the Amazon Marketplace; I managed to sell one previously for $15 or somewhere around there.  And I'm not sure what else i ordered; I might have made most of that $15 back, but I really don't remember.  If I had taken more time in choosing the books I could have raked back in closer to $25 all together, at least and then I would have been maybe right at even, if not making a couple bucks.
But at least I got it out of the way.  I fulfilled my obligation the cheapest way possible.  If they had charged me automatically before I picked what books I wanted, I would have paid $2 more and would not have been able to combine my selections with the club promotional offers, i.e.: $2.49 shipping w/ order of $25+ and one of the copies of THE SANDMAN was FREE b/c they were doing a B2G1 special, and that **MIGHT** have qualified, but it would have been a headache emailing them and having them be like "waaaa...?  I'm not sure what you're asking...what is your acct#?", and the discounted shipping offer WOULD NOT have qualified, b/c part of the $32 they would have auto-charged me if i hadn't manually ordered the books myself was to cover the cost of shipping.  They **MIGHT** have been willing/able to refund the excess S&H, but I sure don't know and wouldn't want to try emailing them 5 times to find out.
So, in other words, it's $34 for four books vs. $32 for two books.  If I were just buying them b/c I'm a book lover and want to own the latest bestsellers in hardcover for a low price, then either one would be acceptable given the fact that $32 for 2 hardcovers is 25% off the MSRP that Barnes & Noble or most other sellers would charge.  But as I am not a book lover and I actively **DESPISE** the selection that the general public has prompted The 'Guild to uphold, it would be an understatement to call it a ripoff; more like a tearoff, as in "dive right in & tear off a big honkin' chunk of my wallet whydon'tya?"
Ugh...I haven't been keeping up with this like I ought to.  Not sure if I'm forgetting anything...
I agreed to buy my mother's unwanted music, so I owe her $30.  I'll have $28 to spend next month, up from what would be $20 b/c of the book sales.  Not much, but I think I can make it work.

Fluey

speaking of sickness, I think I am done w/ the flu.  I FINALLY received my Sambucus in the mail yesterday.  It keeps the flu at bay in small daily doses AND it cures the flu in higher doses.  My nose and throat are still a little mucusy.  So I took two doses today.  Directions state to take four doses if you're not merely maintaining health.  I'll see how I feel by May 1st and try to make it to donate blood to the American Red Cross.  I'll probably just get a ride from the SADI shuttle service and that'll cover the stipulation that I use the service one a year or be removed from their list of clients, supposing things don't work out well enough to where my mother can just drop me off and pick me up soonisher.  Me and her will prolly have at least a couple things to do May 1st.  She'll probably be tired when we're/she's done, so she may vouch to lay down and after I've donated, re-hydrated, the amount of time passed will probably toal at least 20 minutes, which is kind of a smallery nap, but...idk...she may want to go to C.J. Banks or something, it's possible she might be more energized if the docs can figure out what's wrong w/ her...if they can't, then hopefully she'll survive until Thursday.  She's supposed to see a stomach doctor on Wednesday, hopefully that will result in swift discory and even swifter action.

Name that sound

My mother is in the hospital, went to the emergency room at her doc's request, after the past 2+ days throwing up and having pain from eating.  I haven't heard any updates, she left around 4:30.  It's been 5 hrs apprx.  I called, she didn't answer.  My guess is she's spending the night.  Fingers crossed that the docs at St. Fancis know what to do and that she can keep from killing her getting it done...

Meanwhile, at the Bat-Cave...
I'm torn between turning my computer off and going off to listen to one of my CDs or truding through an endless random sea of music so I can stay connected to Gtalk in case my mom texts me...

Brrm.

chop, chop

I had been noticing the past day or two that my thoughts and feelings had been becoming more akin to a liquid than a solid.  Not sure if I can appropriately elaborate.  My psychiatrist asked me to and I told her my memories are becoming more blurry, both in terms of the events themselves and the order they happened in vs. the way they are remembered.  So; she decided, to prevent a potential snap in my mental stability, I should go from 5mg to 7.5mg, which means I now have to break out the pill cutter b/c nobody makes that medicine (Abilify) in 7.5mg form.
You'd think Medicaid would stop paying for Cymbalta, as expensive as it is -- last I remember, it cost $600 per bottle, which is about the size of my cash benefits from SSI.  It seems like if someone were to go balistic and get thrown in jail b/c they refused to take their medication, that the gov't would be saving money by paying for x person/people's prison expenses rather than providing $710 (as of 2013) for x person/people's ability to "get a life", and by "get a life", I mean having your own space and choosing your own food, wearing whatever clothing you wish to, and, if you're smart in finding a place to live & don't pay a rediculous amount for rent, you can even have $100 or so to engage in the marketplace i.e.: Best Buy, Target, the non-grocery section of Wal-Mart, etc....
Granted, $100 is very little, but there are people out there who make even less and don't even know if they can rely on that.  Twice, the long term unemployed have had to wait for congress to announce approval to extend unemployment benefits.  There is some concern that I won't have the luxuries that I currently enjoy, but that is mainly due to the reality of the government's spending habits and their disregard for the fact that WE THE PEOPLE OF THIS GREAT NATION WILL INHERIT THE NATIONAL DEBT WHEN CHINA DECIDES NOT TO LOAN US ANYMORE $$$.  And of course The Bible predicts that in such a scenario, the AntiChrist will rise and I will have to choose weather to accept the Mark of the Antichrist and continue to live out my days or be killed, and possibly be tortured beforehand, hoping that my soul isn't too filthy to be saved. 

Anyway;

Um...seems like I had something else to say.  In any case, I will be back, provided the power doesn't go out.  The clouds have been showing clips from GHOSTBUSTERS II the last couple days.

everything you know you want it

I compiled a list of CDs that I want - THE MOST.  It doesn't have every CD I've ever loved/"loved", but...idk...

There's 30 CDs on it.  Some of the ones I own currently are not included.  The ones I do own that are included tally up to 15.  I just ordered a 16th one, you may think to count that, going on the assumption that it will ship and be delivered, etc...
If I had headed out to the UPS Store to drop off a book that I opted to "trade in" using the Amazon Trade-In service, I would have enough Amazon.com credit to buy two more CDs and I'm expecting $7.75 to be in my bank account soon, which will cover another couple CDs.  When/if that materializes, I'll be 2/3 done.  Yoooooo!!

I have a psychiatrist appt today at 9:15.  If my Gramma shows up by 9am, I should be able to make it.  I'm not sure what time she'll be here...still got two hours before it becomes an urgent matter.

The time to fulfill my Literary Guild purchase requirement runs out May 2nd.  I still have 2 books to buy.  I'm expecting LitGuild to automatically charge my card before I have a chance to choose the books I want.  If they do that, I won't be able to take advantage of their discount shipping rate.  I get money the day before May 2nd, so that leaves no more than 24 hours for me to begin & end.  And 24 hours is kind of a generous estimation; my money isn't available until 6am, and it goes directly into my mom's checking account, since my psychiatrist doesn't think I'm fit to manage my own money.  So I have to wait until 9am, and either walk to the bank with my mom's debit card (which is highly unlikely, given the distance from my home to the bank) or wait until 9 or 10am for my mother to get her head defogged so she can drive like a live human.  So that leaves a max of 14 hours, although it's also possible they could bill me automatically at the end of the scheduled day, but I just don't think that's at all likely.  I'll see tho, unless I die b4 then [fingers crossed!]

Was looking online for this video I saw on TV, this dude was talking about how lame sports interviews are and how much more interesting things would be if instead of squirting each other with gatorade they rubbed chocolate over each other.  I typed in like 12 different search term combinations and can't find it.  ):
On the plus side, I got 4 extra points from Bing (:

SONY will never die, but their CEO will

UHD TVs; wow.  Is that even what they're called?  The term doesn't result in anything relevant when I use it as a search keyboard on Amazon.  Now I know why LED and LCD TVs have so drastically gone down in price the last couple years.  If I had enough money, I'd play along, but by the time I was done saving up, I'd be halfway to my grave, and for what?