Spotify

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3uHHTZLBVWAEvmrMhvC8hh?si=hzOUAt0gSme8oHmy52uR_A&pi=OcSih7y2RnGTu

Thursday, February 26, 2026

the trinity and so forth.

 Was thinking about the wide difference between what reformed Christianity teaches about The Trinity and what people like Philips Craig & Dean, who each pastor a flock of Christians, believe about it.

I don't think Pc&d are correct, but I don't know specifically with any absolute certainty that they are wrong.  I don't think it's wise of them to be expounding on what The Bible already says point blank about "The Trinity".  And I likewise used to get annoyed sometimes when I'd hear reformed Christian leaders talking about it.  The opening pages of Scripture do say: "Let us make man in our image.". Thst would seem very clearly to me to be a reference to the simultaneous existence of God The Father, Jesus Christ and The Holy Spirit.  I simply am not aware of any other explanation and it absolutely seems like a logical thing to think.  However, Job's friends, and Job himself, were not aware of any logical explanation why Job was experiencing the seemingly supernatural assault on him and everything around him.  The only logical explanation they could conjure up was absolutely **not true**.  They were slandering Job and saying things about God that were not 100% accurate, and God told them to seek atonement from Job because Job, although he came awfully close to doing one of those, did not do either of them.

And Jesus warned that blaspheming The Holy Spirit is an unpardonable sin.  People I've read and heard from tend to zero in on the lack of reliance upon The Holy Spirit as what Jesus was referring to, and to an extent that's not inconsistent with the rest of scripture, but we are simply never going to be free from sin while living on this earth.  We will always be veering toward idolatry, and having to snap out of it and repent.  Sin's ownership of us is gone.  That doesn't mean we "have a choice".  We always have a choice of weather to do right or wrong.  You cannot be a child of God if you're owned by sin.  So if you know God, and have made a decision to yield to Him, more and more, as time goes on ("progressive sanctification", I've heard it called), then you are no longer owned by sin.  "You have been transferred from the dominion of darkness to the kingdom of His beloved son".  Another reference to the co-existence of The Trinity, or at least two thirds of Him/it.  At least I think.  Like I said, I don't think PC&D are correct.  But even if they are correct, that means reformed Christians are NOT correct, and vice versa, and I don't think either of us want to be saying or doing ANYTHING that displeases God, especially something so easily avoided.  Humility of this sort is a bit of a challenge, but it doesnt' seem like a mountain that just can't be moved.  Maybe I'm wrong.  I'm probably more humble than a lot of people, even though people swear up and down I'm profoundly arrogant.  Maybe I'm wrong about my take on that.  I don't usually receive correction until I understand it, and I don't LOVE correction, as The Bible advises to.  If I were eager to be told I'm wrong, I'd probably understand the correction I receive without sparring with people because of the lack of clarity I have initially.  Likewise, if people would think about what's coming out of their mouth and how it's going to be understood, instead of just saying what in hindsight often might as well be a bunch of random words that kinda sorta maybe get the point across in a rather vague manner...but anyway...  If I'm really that insanely arrogant, then that's even more evidence of how astoundingly *easy* it is to just stop talking out of our asses like we understand what the counters of everything The Bible says.  There's even a passage that says seemingly out of the blue, "A dispute arose between a Jew about purification", and my pastor, not because he's a slave to sin and thus his eyes have not been opened, but simply, does not know why that is in the text.  Yet he felt the need to expound on that text even, if nothing else than to say "we don't know...".  So, ya, people of all faiths, in many cases, would benefit from being a little more comfortalbe with simply saying "We don't know", or "We're not entirely sure" or something other than half of what I hear from people a lot of the time.
I should confess here that I also have been guilty of trying to understand the trinity and thinking I have it all figured out, when in reality, I am not entirely sure how much accuracy there is in "the doctrine of the trinity" that people seem fully convinced is confirmed in God's word.  I mean, anything can be confirmed in God's word if you look hard enough and think about it at a certain angle.  Just about every "doctrine" has a passage or two that you look at and are like "Ok, THAT seems to contradict it".  And a good chunk of the time it is simply a result of a misreading (which is at least some of the time at least partially the result of crappy translation choices, which are in almost every English translation available) of the text, but sometimes these inconsistencies are just swept under the rug.  Which is fine, when one truth is highlighted time and time again and again and again, and you only see one or two verses that don't seem to match up.  We are often dealing with texts that are over 3 thousand years old after all.  But anyway....
I don't know how much this is edifying to anyone.  I'm probably going on a rampage in some people's minds.  I haven't posted anything in a good while. :/       Well, here's one way to close out February

"The LORD bless you and keep you; the LORD make his face to shine upon you and be gracious to you; the LORD lift up his countenance upon you and give you peace."

Wednesday, January 21, 2026

Hapzrd

 https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aversion_to_happiness

I don't know what exactly the cause of this is in my life.  I don't have a conscience understanding that happiness is wrong, although I do think everything that I tend to enjoy is sinful to some degree.  Lately I haven't been listening to music as much as I'd like because I've been so dang sleepy.  I don't feel discomfort in the midst of happiness, but I do have a bad habit of not pursuing happiness like I probably should.

Friday, January 16, 2026

they /

 It irks me immensely how flippant people are about a fundamental reality that NOT EVERYONE AGREES.  People feel the need to slander other people "because it's true", like "they support the murder of children", or "they're trying to take away women's rights".  Both of those are true and neither of those need to be worded that way.  If you really feel strongly against abortion on moral grounds, how about making your talking points with some sense of compassion.  RvW was backed by the understanding that a fetus is not a baby.  Science, it seems to me, has quashed that notion, but if we're going to categorically consider any form of destruction of human life "murder", what do you call shooting someone who tries to break into your home?  If you're going to use The Bible to support your views on this, I'm pretty sure there's a provision against that.  "Eye for an eye, tooth for a tooth...."  People use that verse to support capital punishment, but that's not quite what that verse is about.  It's saying you don't take an eye just because someone spat on you.  Likewise, you don't knock someone in the face just because they invaded your personal space.

And yes, RvW did establish that women have the "right to choose".  And some pro-life advocates are quite possibly wanting general freedoms to be limited for women.  But that is not the overall aim for "taking away women's rights".  That might very well be a natural consequence of reversing RvW, since women who get pregnant will more likely than not keep the baby and have to make concessions for him/her.  But that was not the main goal of reversing RvW.

I could go on, but I doubt it's going to make any difference.  This vitriolic opinionatedness doesn't seem to have any sign of ending.

Friday, December 5, 2025

G&L

 https://www.crossway.org/articles/a-tender-friend-is-knocking-at-the-door-and-we-only-have-one-job/?utm_source=Crossway+Marketing&utm_campaign=1dc277088f-20251205+Gen-ATenderFriendIsKnockingattheDoor&utm_medium=email&utm_term=0_-1dc277088f-528178872&mc_cid=1dc277088f&mc_eid=80232d4943


Was thinking I could find some information here.  Like, what am I lacking to feel closer to God and a not-quite-so-burdensome way of attaining it.  This article is of no help.  It says my "one job" is to "let" Him be my friend.  Wtfh does that mean???

Gty makes a valid point.  The Bible makes it very clear that the job of a Christian is to repent and believe.  I have so much shit covering my heart from 35+/- years of intense lust that I have no business seeking an easier/easy way out of it.

Tuesday, December 2, 2025

Prayer like Ezra's

 In my BSF meeting last night we went over Ezra chapters 9 and 10.  The prayer of Ezra in chapter 10 I felt was rather relatable.

I decided to adapt it for the time we live in.


O, my God, I am ashamed and blush to lift my face to you, my God, for my iniquities have risen higher than my head, and my guilt has mounted up to the heavens. From days of old to this day man has been in great guilt. And for such trespasses as mine, men have been given into the hands of kings, to the slaughter, to captivity, to chaos, and unto utter shame.

But Your favor has been shown by the ransom paid by Jesus The Christ, to leave mankind a remnant and to give peace, a secure hold within Your holiness, that You may brighten eyes and grant reviving from slavery.

May I thirst for repentance, and find refuge in Your salvation.

Sunday, November 30, 2025

Bulletproof heart

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/22574570-unoffendable


This is such BS.  I know I've never felt angry with perfect wisdom and measure, and **harboring** anger is never righteous, but I'm pretty sure obtaining a bulletproof heart is just not going to happen.  It's a fruitless pursuit.  The Bible never says never be angry.  It does say "No murdering", but the original old testament readers of that text would not have equated being angry with murder.  The sentencing God issues for murder in the ot -- the death penalty -- does not carry over to people who call their fellow kinsman "fool".  The point Jesus was making in Matthew ch5 about murder/anger was not that they are the same thing.  The point He was making is that WE CANNOT SAVE OURSELVES.  Obviously, **actual** bloodshed is far worse than calling a fellow churchgoer a heathen. After the "beatitudes", Jesus is telling people about the kind of righteousness they should be thirsty and hungry for.  Jesus will give you peace that overcomes anger in accordance with your hunger for it, but getting angry for a moment or two is not something we need to eradicate.  

"Get angry

but do not sin."

If you can't keep from falsely accusing your adversary or saying stupid shit, or flying off the handle, then obviously you really should just not get angry if there's anything you can do to help it.  But I know there's times I've gotten angry and I dealt with it appropriately.  Maybe not with utter perfection.  Maybe if I ever get a grip on my idolatry, gluttony and laziness etc, I might care more about at least coming closer to perfection in the ways I deal with my anger but I am not going to be unoffendable.  I'm not specifically interested in trying to be offended, but I don't know how a person living on this planet is even legally allowed to pursue being unofendedable and actually succeeding.  If David had committed to that, then Nathan's analogy about David's own sin would have been useless.  And if you look at the text, Nathan wasn't just some neutral party in the whole thing either. 


Tuesday, November 25, 2025

Such large laughs, such small repetition

 I really appreciate a good laugh.  There's a lot of movies I could have over flooding living quarters with just out of gratitude for the laughs they provide.

Death At A Funeral 2005. If you haven't seen this, maybe give it a try.  It doesn't seem like it was very well received by audiences.  I thought it was a blast.  Ymmv

Spy 2016 I had fairly high hopes for GHOSTBUSTERS after seeing this feature from Paul Feig.  Unfortunately the GB remake recalled an earlier movie from Feig-- The Heat.  This movie was comedy dynamite tho.  

Vacation 2016 - Very raunchy, so my peeps from church might want to steer clear of it...  Funny is funny tho (imo).

Liar Liar 1997 it seems like just about everyone by now has seen this movie.  I've just about over-watched it despite it having been years since I last saw it.

Dirty Work 1997 I almost forgot about this one.  This is just all out gonzo funny.  

Drawing a blank.  There's probably at least a few more I could include here.  Groundhog Day is more of a philosophical feel-good movie than a riotous comedy.  What About Bob was similar even tho it was a little more eerie. 

I might update this in a few hours....or something... Might..


Sunday, November 23, 2025

AS-IS

I keep seeing people use this phrase to describe their merchandise on sites like eBay.  And I keep having to wonder WHAT the heck is the point in saying that?  How ELSE would you sell an item??  As it ISN'T?  ???

Friday, November 21, 2025

Mind your scrimulous cotton candy!

 https://genius.com/Nirvana-beeswax-lyrics#about


This song always cracks me up.  I can't make out half of what he sang, but the phrase "cotton candy" is intelligible enough...   It always sounds to my ears like he was referencing some kind of deranged anthromorphed cotton candy.  The actual lyrics are not much less disturbing...



Thursday, November 20, 2025

budgeting awaah!

 Really unfortunate that so many people who are actually dealing with the pressures of the labor market can barely if at all afford to live.

That being said, I have had some difficulty getting my financials straightened out.
I have a ton of debt I'm really hoping I can get straightened out in December.  And then, aside from the mountain of credit card debt I absent mindedly accumulated ---     ://        -----      I'll be on my way to a fresh start -- hopefully -- in January.  It's nice to have something tangible to look forward to as well.

Martin Scorsese's BRINGING OUT THE DEAD (1999) is being re-released on Blu ray this coming January.  It came out in a limited edition pack about a year ago, and boy was it limited.  It's like $100 to buy it used.  Thing is, I bought it, and the cover art just looks stupid.  I have it on DVD and the cover art is pitch perfect.  This time Paramount is using the original cover-art instead of this pink purply design they used with the first blu ray issuance.  So it'll be cool to have that.  It's one of my favorite movies, probably because it resonates with how I'd feel just working at Kroger or whatever....  Feeling like the life is being sucked out of me, just constantly approaching a black hole.  I don't know what the deal with that is.  I guess I'm just spoiled.  That small amount of time of being a 4y/o was too sweet to give up.  I guess.  I don't know how to explain it.

Anyway...
The Blu ray (it's actually a 4K disc, but whatever) is $33 with shipping.  And then I like to pay for Pandora because I can get access to full length albums that I don't actually have on CD yet/anymore....   And their custom radio feature is unparallelled.  Always good to show support for a job well done.  And it's only $11/mo.  1 CD costs more than that (!)  And I'd like to continue my HBO Max subscription.  It's a good time to be a subscriber.  They've got several things they've released recently and then there's more otw.
Beyond that, I'll have $30 that I don't have anything I specially NEED to do anything with, although I suppose I could start chipping away at the couple thousand dollars of debt I've amassed from my gelatinous mass of credit card usage.... :/  I think it'd be better spent giving to God's work.  Probably just give to Samaritan's Purse, because they do the work of The Salvation Army and Bible translators simultaneously in a variety of ways.