words + exaggeration = racism?

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/politics/arizona-councilman-sparks-backlash-after-saying-i-cant-breathe-at-anti-mask-rally/ar-BB15XCFi?OCID=ansmsnnews11

The phrase "I can't breathe" has been adopted as the chant of the anti-police brutality demonstrations that have been happening across the nation, but apparently people forgot that those words actually mean something.  The dictionary's definition of "I" "can't" and "breathe" have not been changed since George Floyd's death.  Exaggerations have not been outlawed either have they?
 Yeah, it's vaguely possible that Guy Phillips could have been mocking George Floyd by using that phrase, but....I mean, is it really necessary to assume the worst about every thing that gets said and done?  I think people should be more offended that he's not willing to cover his face when he goes about.  I just sneezed the other day.  It happens.  My first thought is not "I have COVID-19".  My first thought it someone else might be freaking out about the possibility that I have COVID-19.  How many people have 2 or 3 symptoms of Covid-19 and are not wearing masks and aren't in isolation?  I don't think I have COVID-19, and I think I'm smart enough to assert that in a fairly even light, but how many people are dumb as a doorbell and still think they can diagnose themselves?  There's people around who still think the virus is a media hoax because they don't know anyone personally who has it.  Freedom of opinion is one thing.  Clothing is not a constitution matter.  It's not a state or city legislation matter.  If anything, the government's right to regulate clothing has precedent.  Ever heard of "indecent exposure"?  Saving lives by wearing an extra (non-electronic at that) piece of cloth (of which you can pick your own style etc.-- lots to choose from now) is not unconstitutional.  In an alternate universe where the last words in a sentence are key to understanding it, you could read  LIFE , LIBERTY , and THE PURSUIT OF HAPPINESS as "be happy no matter how many people I maim or oppress"  The pursuit of happiness does not supersede LIFE.  It does not supersede LIBERTY either, and LIBERTY also does not supersede LIFE.  POH and Liberty are not equal in their value.  If you can't be happy without potentially spreading a virus that has thus far caused half a million people to leave behind a guestimate of at least 2 million loved ones to grieve then your happiness and/or the pursuit thereof is simply irrelevant.

Chaynge The Wuurld!

Was reading some of Ephesians yesterday.  Really got my heart pumped for God and the promises The Holy Spirit.  Was like yellin' "Yeeah!", except, ya know, inside....then I resumed normal living.  My sister proposed the idea that facing my sin for all that it is is probably what's holding me back.  I don't know what to do about that.  I guess God will deal with that in His time.  If it never happens.....idk.  I just think I'm not committed enough.  Not sure if that lack of commitment will have any harsh consequenes for me.  I don't expect to remain in ignorant bliss eternally.  I'm sure I'll get a real long hard talkin' to when I get to Heaven.  "DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT YOU'VE DONE????" and I'll be like "Um...." and He'll be like "LOOK!" and I'll be like "AAAGH!", but it'll be over at some point, and he'll probably be wiping my tears away and trying to calm me down.

Man.  Lots is riding on me.  I really should try harder.  Irrg.  idk.  It's too hard.  Ayrg.

oook.....not sure what to write about elsewise.  Mm.

figured I should post an update since it's been almost 2 weeks....don't want to turn that into 1 or 2 months...........

let's go to the mobies

Also check out Psycho Stick's debut "We Couldn't Think Of A Title"
I didn't know what Antebellum meant before Lady Antebellum changed their name from that to Lady A (What does the "A" stand for?  "Uhhm...none of your business!")
https://www.rt.com/usa/491567-lady-antebellum-name-change-slavery/


 I understand not siding with racism.  I understand that racist cops exist and its almost impossible to weed them out.  Cops need to have each others' back, but they need to uphold the law.  This whole mess of cops committing atrocities, and then weeks later, they finally lose their job AND their pay, and no charges are filed, is disgusting. 

However, I really don't understand why everyone is so hateful of police in general.  Thousands upon thousands of police departments, and how many cops per department?   There probably is a lot more corruption in most police departments than their should be, coercing of witnesses, tricking confessions from people...That stuff pisses me off.  There's nothing I can do to prevent that from happening to me except remain silent.  The police don't want to protect the innocent.  They want to punish the guilty.  If someone dies and you're the last person in their circle to speak with the person, the police don't assume you might be innocent.  So if you're in that situation, you need to call for a lawyer, because the interrogation room is probably the closest thing to a trial you will receive.

Because most of us aren't doing government for a living, it's easy to think there's something wrong with the police.  There isn't.  We are all corrupt on some level.  None of us can walk away from our homes and say that we've acted fairly toward one another in our assumptions or perceptions about every person place or thing.  One guy I went to class with back in high school said The Cure sucks.  I said "What songs by them have you heard?  He said "I haven't.  I just know they suck."  Then he balked at me being confused about that.  "Aren't I entitled to an opinion?"  I told him he had nothing to make an opinion from, so why does he have one?  I can understand having a low opinion of an individual or a style of music, but this guy mainly listened to rap and heavy rock.  It's not harmful to have a negative opinion of music, but if we as humans aren't practicing fair judgement on art, then how can we be trusted to treat each other well?

I'm not saying everyone is a hypocritical scumbag.  Many people do try and make an effort to be just and kind, but even such people have their weak spots or moments.

The link I posted above near the top says that "liberals" are saying Hollywood shouldn't make movies where the police are the protagonists.  Seriously?  We are all human.  Police deserve to be honored for their good works as much as any civilian.  Richard Jewell was exsonorated (spellcheck, you evilfffff!) by both the government and Hollywood.  That doesn't mean the cops didn't do a decent investigation and use common sense + scientific reasoning to get the job done.  It just means they got the wrong guy and as I said in one of the above paragraphs, if you are in an interrogation room, it means the cops already decided you're guilty and are only interested in evidence that supports that thesis.  Answer their questions, sure.  Don't keep answering the same questions or start yacking about random stuff.  Ask for a lawyer and shut up.  They really should say that to begin with, instead of waiting until you're charged with something.  But the same facts remain "You have the right to remain silent.  Anything you say can & will be used against you in a court of law.  You have the right to an attorney..."    I'm not saying the police didn't make mistakes in the R.J. case.  I'm saying the average person probably wouldn't have done a better job.

the times they'rrr a changgginggg

It's interesting to me to think that not too terribly long before I was born, pornography was not legal.  People cite the constitution as the basis for this and I really don't get how that argument makes any sense.  Hollywood makes movies for wide use.  If a screenwriter is forced to forfeit his pay if he doesn't tack on a "happy ending", how is that any more censorship than a state electing leaders to enforce the absence of influences that chip away at the steadfastness of their faith?  The government isn't allowed to force a religion on people.  They are required however to listen to their constituents.  The People chose George Washington over God.  We are seeing exactly what happened with Solomon's successors to Israel's throne.  The People chose to have a human king.  All was good for awhile, and then Solomon, king #3, started looking over across the fence and surely enough, his successors ruled with ever exceeding wickedness.  God dismantled Israel and then proceeded to send us Jesus.  Humanity has experienced historic triumphs since its' adoption of Him as King, but over the last 150 or so years, we have grown over confident in our abilities and have done all imaginable to discredit God's involvement with the triumphs we currently are graced with.  I don't think it'll be very long at all before God dismantles the Earth and picks up the pieces of humanity that were not over arrogant or dismissive or hateful toward The One Sovereign God.
People say that earthquakes and hurricanes are proof that God isn't there.  No.  It's proof that God IS there and is willing to warn you of His power.  You can make up whatever you want.  The Bible, made up or not, is real and nobody has proven it to be false.  People insist that Genesis' 1981 song "Abacab"'s lyrics are "non sensical", but they make perfect sense with a tiny bit of exploring.  Same thing with The Bible.  Many academic types refuse to explore it.  They assume it's rubbish and don't even consider the possiblity that isn't, except for maybe a brief moment but as soon as any paradox or confusion crops up, it goes back to being lumped in with every other religious text.  It amazes me how some people talk about that and talk about it like it's a completely different religion than Judaism.  True, The Bible was not delivered all at one time.  If you understand anything about the heart of man, it doesn't take much to read The Bible and imagine a bunch of neoandrathals (sp??) walking about, completely unprepared to accept Jesus into their hearts.  God added His word as the events in Earth continued to unfold.  If Israel had done what Micha 3:6 says and walked humbly with their Lord, seeking Justice and being Merciful, then The Bible have ended where Moses had left it before he departed

Hollow denial

https://money.cnn.com/2018/07/18/technology/zuckerberg-recode-holocaust/index.html


I can't easily imagine someone having any reason to think the Holocaust never happened.  However, if someone says it never happened, how can someone else assume that they're not in denial but are rather deliberately misinforming people?  And if someone were to deliberately misinform people about the reality of the Holocaust, what exactly is stood to be gained?  What is the benefit of anti-Jewish people in pretending to be in denial about the Holocaust?  What is the goal there?  The only thing I can think of is they want to complete the work Hitler started and can't do that publically nor can they do that discreetly if everyone is on guard about preventing another Holocaust.  Maybe such hatred for Jewish people still exists.  I don't understand it.  I'm not saying I believe the Holocaust never happened, but if someone is willfully spreading the notion that the Holocaust never happened, who are they spreading it to?  People post all kinds of stupid crap on Facebook thinking their sources are reliable.  What if a malicious anti-Semite comes across to some un-discerning pair of eyes as a reliable source of information and then the person who reads the words of this malicious anti-Semite believes it and then proceeds to post that information?  If that scenario is not possible, then what is the point of this "willful, deliberate and longstanding deception tactic by anti-Semites that is incontrovertibly hateful, hurtful, and threatening to Jews"

Haim WOMEN IN MUSIC VOL. III

On Columbia LPs and tapes.  CDs are comparable in audio quality, don't require thousands of dollars to utilize, and don't wear out unless you treat your stuff like it's of the city dump.  How difficult is it really to put a pamphlet inside its' case w.o slamming it in there like the forces or gravity are some new thing?  The tabs in the front of a case are to keep the insert from falling out when you open the case.  They don't disappear.  If you want junk then your vinyl or CD or 8track cartridge is going to accommodate you on that.  If you want your stuff to look like it didn't rise up from the toilet you need to pay attention to how you handle it.

Evangelical scientists

I don't know what a non evangelical Christian is except maybe an imitation of the real thing.

"Go and make disciples of all nations"  You either can't do what He's commanded or you're outright refusing.  Your God is not Jesus if you'r refusing.  There's no excuse for not proclaiming your Faith except a complete lack of appreciation for what you "have faith" IN.  "God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son so that any one who believes in Him shall have eternal life"  If you believe in some guy named Jesus who condones inserting man made ideology with Jesus' teachings, I'd say you have the wrong guy.  "Seek and ye shall find"  If you harbor false teachings about Jesus, you can get rid of them by reading The Bible and carefully considering each and every sentence.  "Whoever causes one of these little ones to stumble would be better off with a slow and painful death"  The greatest atrocities in Gods' eyes are not easy to overcome.  Seek and you shall find.

Would it really be so awful if scientists at least conceded to the possibility of God?

I mean, seriously -- WHAT is at stake if people believe God's word in its entirety exactly as its written?  Is anyone honestly fearful of The Spanish Inquisition Pt. II?  Christian leaders have been known to make some really f--'d up statements, like proclaiming that homosexuals should be exterminated and that if you aren't speaking in a foreign language that you didn't even know existed and aren't aware of it at the time, then you aren't saved.  The latter of those two examples only makes sense in reality if you believe any and all religious hypocrites will die on the spot like Ananias and his wife did.  God does not need to do everything He does exactly the same way every day.  

HOWEVER,

Even if you could in any level of honesty say that all earnest God seeking members of a church that describes itself as Christian are abortion doctor - killers or gaystoppo members (sorry---probably not an appropriate pun, but....uh...yeah--not that sorry...) that still doesn't change the capacity for The Bible, in its entirety, to be A) scientifically proven or B) scientifcally possible.  One guy says The Bible isn't true because the sorcerer's donkey is said to have spoken words to the sorcerer.

Even if the encounter between the sorcerer and his donkey were 100% included in The Bible and the sorcerer didn't stop for a moment and say "YIKES!  When did YOU figure out how to talk??!" (which would have indicated to people who are alive today that it was not an everyday occurance and that God had a direct hand in the matter) there's still a possibility that animals had characteristics that are no longer present in their modern day variants.  Can such characteristics be scientifically proven to have existed in animals that were alive 3,000+ years ago?  Highly unlikely.  Most people seem to conclude that it was describing a miracle. If a miracle could be scientifically proven, it wouldn't be a miracle.  People also say "How is it different from any other religion?"  I can't speak of real authority on any other religion, but how many people have achieved self actualization by way of Buddhism or any similar religion?  How many people are thankful to The Enlightened One (Buddha) for their improved lot in life?  Does a millionaire with a hot wife and ample sex life and a great connection with her and bright kids with no sickness or deformities give thanks to Buddah?  What if you have some of that but not all of it?  What if your relationship with your wife could use some improvement or your kids aren't Einstein Jr. or they have some mild health issues or you're not a mllionaire but you had loving parents growing up and gained a secure job in a fairly high paying industry doing something that you aren't bored to tears with or resentful of in some way?  How do you know your life is better or worse than your previous life?  How can you possibly do better if for all you know the best anyone could ever do has already been done?  The Bible says essentially that everyone's got problems and we need to forgo any complaints we have and do what is necessary to show love and kindness to those who are facing difficulties.  Yes, the virtue of that can't be scientifically proven.  Yes, there may be similar pleas for justice in other religions but what do those religions amount to?  Many religions continue to exist on the pure basis that nobody has challenged those beliefs.  When people groups across the globe get introduced to The Bible, almost always opposition is met because it upsets the status quo.  But you almost always have those who take a step back and say "Hey...this book is onto something"  Indigenous religions are not being stolen by evangelism.  They are being abandoned.  If I have a CD that I love,love,loveSOfreakin'love the sound of today but for years on end can't find any joy in it, chances are I'm going to do what many of these people with localized religions who've been preached the Gospel have done -- let go and forge ahead.  Yes, The Bible is a very old book.  The Earth itself even older.  Does that mean it's not real or that any respect for it is not warranted?

May the 4th force be returned

STAR WARS THE DESPECIALIZED EDITION fan edit I can't figure out how to download to dual layer BD recordable.

RRRg.  Sold the "official" edition and got most of what I paid for it back at me.

rrrrr.

Now some AWESOME news!!!

Guess what popped into my mail box a couple days ago?

Eveything you see on this picture with the exception of Mr Stay Puft, The Slimer and his little pizzaroo too

!

In honor of yesterday's MLP / GB crossover thingy, I'm going to be musing on the ghost accessories that come with each figure as if they were the hero's pet rather than something to chase and catch.

You know how they saw pets often resemble their owners?  I've found that to be true in regards to the inner person.  My old cat Napoleon was almost identical to me in his behavior.  He was super smart, constantly inquiring and trying to learn stuff.  He sat on top of a toilet for about half an hour watching the plumber work on it.  He was also at turns clingy and wanting space.  He was full of energy and life, and it came out in the oddest of ways

Now, here it is:

PETER VENKMAN w GRABBER GHOST

You know how Peter Venkman (played by Bill Murray in the movies) was always trying to grab women?  Don't get me wrong.  He asked permission first...and didn't usually get it, but that's not the issue.  He was always doing his best to coyly say "May I grab you?"

                                                                                         RAY STANTZ w WRAPPER GHOST

Ray Stantz --- look at his face!  If that face's brain couldn't have conjured up the super duper freakishly deadly friendly side of Gozer the Gozarian, I don't know what could.

The Wrapper Ghost, like Ray's super freakishly friendly self, is designed to physically wrap itself onto things.  What things?  Not important.  Ray's presence, if it doesn't wrap itself around you and either kill you or make you a better human being, then you're probably in need of a ride in the Ecto-1 (or the Ecto-1A if you prefer...)

                                                                                EGON w. GULPER GHOST

Egon's voice, in the movie & in the TV series, always sounded like it was the victim of a gulp that never went down all the way.

                                                                                   WINSTON w. CHOMPER GHOST

I'm not sure why they chose "Chomper" (big beak) ghost to accompnay Winston.  I think they either ran out of ideas or it reflects a racist idea set that supports the notions of "black people are mouthy"

or

perhaps less offensive but extremely un-P.C.  ---- black people in the U.S. mostly migrated from the South or still live in the South after being kidnapped from Africa.  Maybe that's not even true, but if it is, it makes sense to assume a black man, either his ancestors or himself at some point or another, would at least WANT a big mouth to do some serious chomping on his southern cooking.

Call it racist or stupid or whatever.  That's the closest thing I can think of.  I don't the idea of "pet" was in the minds of the Kenner toymakers but I do think they were trying to pair them with a toy that somehow represents an aspect of their personality.  Obviously they either ran dry or something with Winston.

Also, why does Winston have his fists clenched and none of the other figures do?

More racism creeping in?  Na...well....naaa....

kicking and screaming

Just been actively chill while inactively pulsating with suppressed will.

Pissed off a lot lately.  Go figure.  "I don't  feel like  reading The Bible."  "Well, you need to"  "Eh..."  And so it goes.  Stupid.  And I'm sitting here talking about it too.  Idk.

oook.  I seriously f--ing swear, today, maybe just today, feels like wind.  It's not wind-e.  It's like a day that was claymationed out of wind.  Like my head and the grass and the pavement were all formed out of a f--n cloud.  Stinks.  I hate these days.  They are superficially gorgeous and mind numbing.

It's been nice overall the past week or so.  Days have been beyond sufficient in sunlight while not being too heated by it.  We had some rain but not days on end of it.  One night I thought it might enter my room it was giant windy thundering.  My brother in law had just sealed a baldy-in-need-of-sealing window in my room a couple weeks or less prior.  If he hadn't done that..........

Decided to go to the store a couple days ago.  So far no symptoms of the bug.  Still won't know much of anything 'til 14 days is up.  I prayed to my Lord and asked for His protection.  I figure if He decides against granting that request, then He has the foresight and insight necessary to make Good of it.  The ultimate LIFE is not on Earth.  I don't get the impression The Garden Of Eden was ever meant to be the be all end all of man's experience.  I think the Garden of Eden was basically sort of a testing ground for God's creation.  God's creation failed the testing.  Yet He loved us regardless, so much so that he sent Jesus to dwell with us and die for us and live again so we can learn to live abundantly.  Someone on Amazon was saying that the rainbow does not mean what The Bible says it means because even after a tsunami there's a rainbow.  I so wish I could get ahold of that guy and explain The Bible.  He says he belongs to a church but the pastor there must be extremely weak minded to not be able to understand how the entire Bible adds up to make perfect sense if you use it to find answers.  I mean, for crying out loud; you don't need to be a genius to understand The Bible.  Most of what makes The Bible difficult to understand in spots has already been explained in other writings that are readily available.  Any pastor worth his salt can find these writings without any trouble.  Most of these books can be found by commonfolk as well.

Aaanyway.

uh....idk how I got started on that.  Oh...ya.  anyway.

Ug.  i probably had too much to eat for lunch.  glug.

i will c my way out of here.  sorry I don't have much more to say.  Maybe later today I'll think of something.

OH! Sorry ---- Not dead.

Furrrdge
Adjustment to living in the new house is a snap.  I'm not an amateur at this after all.
Kids are time consuming.  I try to be on the main floor many of days in case my sister needs help + it's good to have company outside my computer.
Quarantine just means or two less outings each week.  I usually have no real rock solid reason for going anywhere anyway.  Many times I've found myself exhausted and sickened by eyeing a bunch of cool things ------ that I can't afford.  So it's all good.
My sister got a budget figured out for me this past month that breaks off my credit card payments and allows me to have $50/mo.  Sounds like a good chunk of money right?  It isn't.  I blew through almost all of it within 5 days.  From May onward I'm committed to giving $25 of that to the local church each month.  I don't feel any "speaking" of The Holy Spirit regarding dollar amounts, so I'm just going by what God told Moses straight up and commanded to be relayed to the Isrealites a s whole ---- 10% of everything.  I don't know what exactly "everything" is, but inasmuch as I'm aware, 10% is what I'm tithing.  I don't count the monetary value of gifts I receive, because my money gets spent on whatever I can afford.  Nobody has broken down the grocery costs per person, for instance.  Do the sanitary wipes I use get paid for by my income?  I have no clue.  It's all divvied up and spread out with no sense or order.  I have no clue what to tithe beyond what I am given clear as day by the Federal Government.  Obviously I get more than $250.  My entire check from the gov't is $771 but $600 of that just goes immediately to my sister and my sister uses that to calculate the amount of her tithe, basically tithing on my behalf...sorta...I would like to tithe $90 / mo but I'll have to rid myself of my Overstock.com credit card before I can even consider that.  And even that wouldn't be enough to enable it.  I'd still be missing about $5.00.  And I'd have no money whatsoever to even pay a measily $10 for a Spotify subscription.  Or a $5.00 Pandora Plus subscription.  Not that I necessarily need those.  Pandora is usually tolerable even with ads.  Spitify a little less so but still doable.

Aaanyway.  Still struggling to find the will to read God's Word on a regular basis.  And finding myself at fault in my actions because of that.  I finally took my antipsychotics for the first time in like 3 days.  I can't remember if I missed 2 days or 3.  too many in any case. 

Had my psych appt a couple days ago.  ATL Behavioral Medicine has got some serious communication issues.  They scheduled an appt with me --- by video chat --- and gave me these weird ass instructions and never got back to me.  Then they called me several days later saying "You had an appt at 3:15, so we need to reschedule"  Ok.....why did I have an appt and 3:15 yet nobody told me this?  They "re"scheduled the appt for the day formerly known as "tomorrow" and so I called to "check in" (one of the confusing points in the instructional email; I either have my phone on me --- as I should --- or I don't.........) and way before my scheduled appt time I have my video face to face w/ one of the staff there.  The next day I get some call about an appt I had scheduled for (((what at the time was considered))) TODAY!  what the fuck?  Tomorrow does not mean 2 days., it means ONE DAY away from THE current day!  The work day may have been coming to a close FOR THEM at 5:15 or whatever time that was that they called me saying my appt needed to be rescheduled.  But when it's 5:15, THE CALANDER DATE DOES NOT CHANGE!  Like fucking shit, you need a glossary of spock-speak to understand what X business' employees mean when they say something as fkkkk simple as "tomorrow"??????????????????????????????????
In all of this I've emailed them at least twice asking if I have a fee owed to them.  They've yet to respond.  For all I know because of their dumb shit, I owe them $200 in no show and late cancellation fees.  I hope they're at least aware that I do not SHOW UP for a VIDEO CALL!  I either answer my phone or I ignore it, deliberately in some fashion or another.  If I put my phone's noises on silent, then I can't exactly expect to be able to answer a video call, then can I?  If I leave my phone upstairs, I can't exactly blame them for the fact that I left my phone laying somewhere now can I?  I understand checking in when I got to the dr  Doc or whoever comes out and says my name and they have no reason to assume out of the half dozen or more people in the waiting room might be me UNLESS I check in.  But when you email or text soembody, the person either answers or they don't.  I don't know why someone would schedule an appt with a dr and then blow the dr off.  I can understand not answering the phone -- forgetting where it is or absent mindedly silencing it -- but regardless of when or if you check-in, the chance of answering when the doc calls is still just as high unless the patient is just being stupid and refusing to answer no matter what.
idk..I'd like to think I'm limited in this understanding of things.  Maybe.  (sigh)

Yep.  Still not much to talk about here.  Got a usual blog entry written and I haven't written in almost two months. ugg.