this is ticking me off

I'm getting really ticked off with these people slamming others for not wanting to make English the "official" United States language. Making such legislation does NOTHING except make it "official" that the United States doesn't like it when non-English speaking people live here. Oh, poor America; having its children being exposed to other cultures...boo hoo hoo!

I think if people have such a problem with non-English speaking folk living in the United States, that instead of making English the official language in our country, they should just go back to England, where English originated and has been the official language for centuries. If they don't like that idea, just think how all these Germans and Mexicans and Chinese people (...) must feel to have to be told to go back to their homeland or learn English.

We already have the conveniences that come with NOT being a minority; if listening to other people speak an other language is discomforting, there's a simple solution: GET OVER IT! It's not that difficult and it's not even all that time consuming. You can support narrow minded thinking all you want, that doesn't keep the non-narrow minded from having enough courage and integrity to do the same thing with their way of thinking.

Case in point; the identities of adults are formed by the influences from their childhoods. These influences vary from city to city and state to state and from county to country. We live in a world where families often have to move to new environments to find good jobs, and these families interact with their new surroundings and learn new things about other people.
In other words, LEARNING is required, unless you live under a rock. LEARNING equals a less narrow mind and until LEARNING becomes outlawed, these "radical liberals" are not going to back down to you people! Thankfully Barack Obama is protected by a vast array of open minded (although decidedly corrupt...) media officials and the like, as well as a bigger campaign budget, so that the ordinary uncaring unconcerned selfish idiot who MIGHT vote for either candidate will most likely vote for the dude who DOESN'T position himself with a bunch of narrow minded and hateful dudes.

i found the cure for getting older...

[that's a Fall Out Boy reference FYI]

this is the best I've done so far at creating a playlist:

2001-2002

1) Head Over Heels - Tears For Fears
I remember seeing the video for this on VH1 Classic
2) In My Head - the Psychedelic Furs
This dude hired as a mentor (I would just flat out say "mentor", but he kinda sucked at his job...) had a huge collection of 80's music and music made by bands who were famous, more or less, in the 80's and WORLD OUTSIDE was one of them.
3) Gone Away - Cold
I remember hearing this and wanting to sing it to Megan Irvin, the biggest and twistedist crush in the history of mankind.
4) Hard To Explain - The Strokes
This band was all the rage back in the summer of 2002. I never got into this band the way all the critics and anti-emo/popsters did...but this song was pretty good.
5) Undercover - Pete Yorn
This is from the SPIDER-MAN soundtrack, which was OK, but I hated the film 'cause the romance between Peter Parker and Mary Jane just didn't come across that clearly to me.
6) Seein' Red - Unwritten Law
A perfect song for my hazy state of mind back in those days.
7) My 1st Trip To Mars - Atticus Fault
I've always been weird. But that year(s), I felt like I was almost levitating...
8) The Question - Familiar 48
This and the one immediately above it were both semi-popular in spring-fall 2002, they were constantly being played on MusicChoice, which is/was a series of channels on digital cable that play music while showing you the cover art of the CD its from as well as displaying the artist/album/track info, which comes in handy if you buy CDs...but after 2002, both these songs just kinda got buried under the rug...not sure what's up with that...
9) Forever Young - Alphaville
One of many songs I discovered via VH1 Classic. This one I actually remember clearly though...
10) Time Stand Still - Rush
I sang this to myself on the way home from the last day of school.
11) I'd Do Anything - Simple Plan
You hear me Megan?! I'd do anything!!!!
12) A Long December - Counting Crows
I heard this on MusicChoice and balled my eyes out so friggin' hard, thinking I'd someday soon be rich of my wonderful screenplays and be living in California without Megan. Gosh, my life has sooooooo changed since then. I hardly ever mess with fiction anymore, of any format, and I don't have any interest in living in California.
13) Fat Lip - Sum 41
"I don't wanna fall in love, be another victim of your conformity and back down"
14) In This Diary - The Ataris
I used to hate this song, but, really, it's pretty good. Granted, it's not the most articulate song, but you get the idea more than well enough. "Being grown up isn't half as fan as growing up. These are the best days of our lives".

poem...

Well, it's not really a poem; I was writing it hoping to make it a song someday...but there's no music, written or performed, to go with it, so I guess for now it's just a poem; a work in progress at that; but it says most, if not all, of what I want it to...I'm struggling to add more to it, so here it is for now...

The world is empty, I’m alone
Buildings and postcards pass me by
My mind keeps spinning thoughts and observations
But why? What’s the point?
I reach out to hug a tree, but it’s all so fake
My love is useless, ‘cause I’m too far up
I wonder what’s beyond this world
If there’s a place where my heart can run free
‘cause it’s the only thing my imagination seems to fancy

boo!

Yeah, right; I scared you good - NOT!

THERE'S NO HORROR FILMS SHOWING IN THE NEXT 14 DAYS according to TVGuide.com. THIS IS BLASPHEMY!

I mean, yeah, they MIGHT (I really don't care either way) be showing some stupid faceless slasher film from the 2000s, or some "modern classic" (?) like SAW or SAW II or whatever, but what about the CLASSICS!??!! What about the tried and true thrills and chills of films like THE SHINING (1980), DAWN OF THE DEAD (1978), CARRIE (1976), CANDYMAN (1992), HELLRASIER (1987), or HALLOWEEN II (1981; I personally prefer that over the original, although I know a lot of people descent on that opinion), or PET SEMATARY TWO (1992?; they both suck, amauturish camera work and whatnot, but if I had to choose between the two, I'd pick the sequel; I like how they took the original and blew it out of proportion or whatever...added a bunch of stuff, more serious subplots, like child neglect and abuse etc.)...I mean, I guess I don't need to list 'em all...I searched for SEVERAL and the only one that was showing was END OF DAYS on Starz, which I don't have, nor do I know anyone (such as my mother/sister) who does. Actually, I think there was another film, I don't remember which one, but that too is on a station that I don't have easy access to (HBO).
It seems like people have grown ashamed of celebrating the fun and spirit of the macabre. Of course, I know there's always been and still is and always will be a segment of the population who considers Halloween to be some sort of pegan holiday that represents evil, but either that segment is growing or...I don't know. I guess in a post 9/11 world, people a) don't feel as easy having fun and/or b) feel more catious about how they have their fun. I've said this for awhile now and I'll say it here and again: unless you ARE one of those heavy-Christian-types who scorns the idea of Halloween, why the heck don't you put your decorations up in AUGUST!! There's NO HOLIDAY in between the 4th of July and Halloween! That gives us 2+ solid months to savor the thrills and chills of the macabre and delight in such "morbid" spirits! Even if that's too much wickendess for your soul to take, that's beside the point. IT IS OCTOBER! - WELL INTO IT! Gimme some blood dang it!
Amen

pretty good day

I think my string of bad(+/-) days is over. It's a shame to admit it, but I really don't know why, so I guess honesty is what this is all about, right?...anyway, as I was saying, that "leech" I was talking about a few days, she just makes me feel weird. I don't know why. I know I don't like her, she's clingy, stupid and seems kinda kooky. But I don't know why hanging around her makes me feel so gloomy. She was knocking on my door at the middle of the night the last 2+ days, but last night she didn't knock. I didn't answer when she did knock those 2+ nights, so I guess (hopefully?) she's gotten the clue. I guess "survival of the fittest" has its place in the world. You gotta have what it takes to make it in the world. She lets too many people take advantage of her. She gets $637 a month like I do, but she ended up with only $300 or so 'cause someone stole almost+ $300...and she wasted $275 or something like that on a friggin' HO-TEL! She's been homeless for awhile, so it's not like she couldn't rough it out for a few days or so until finding an apartment. Now she IS homeless and she'll have to remain so for who knows how long, at least 'til next month. On top of that, she wasted pretty much all the other $25 (?) on cigarettes and liquor (sp?).
So I got her out of my life. And I feel fine now. Not much to be proud of, except I did what I had to do, which I guess is the least anyone can do. If I could save the world, it's hard to say weather I would. People who CAN save the world usually refuse. Am I really any different than all the rich people?
I spent about 5 or 6 hours with my mother. that was cool. the weather was amazing. I really hope the winter isn't murderous. last winter was relentless.
I exchanged 3 of the mail-in movies @ Blockbuster for in-store rentals. I got 2 old releases and 1 new release. I was kind of looking forward to the new release, so I got it done. It sucked. It was THE LOVE GURU, from the makers of the AUSTIN POWERS trilogy. I guess I just can't pretend it's 1999 again. It'd be nice if I could.

no longer raining & more

My nose is not stuffed up anymore. I hope I didn't pass the cold onto my mom or sister...the weather today is kinda gloomy, but at least it's not raining...might clear up later today...I got out of the house yesterday, but it wasn't a whole lotta fun. It wasn't like prison or anything flat-out bad, it just wasn't as fun as what I invision when I think of "getting out of the house". My mom fell over a week ago, and she's in a lot of pain b/c of it. She came with my sister and myself to WalMart and Sam's Club.
My sister's at work today, which is cool in some way(s) b/c she's ON a PAID vacation right now, so she's making what I guess you might call "time and 2/3"...not quite double what she'd normally get in a day...it'd be nice if she could stay home on her vacation, but her financial state is really tough. Hopefully things will look up within the next 10 years.

better now (I think...)

I feel a bit better today. It's raining, but I kinda like the rain; just don't like to be out in it...I do have a cold I think, which I picked up from that woman who spent the night the night before. My nose is stuffed up, but not to the point I can't breath, so I'm not too bothered by that. I went to bed before 7pm yesterday and got up around 5am b/c my cats were sooo hungry, ate something, then went back to bed. The phone woke me up less than half an hour ago, and I'm expecting a package via UPS, so...better stay awake for that. I also did not intentionally stay asleep for 12+ hours; I don't know I did that...I don't agree with the idea of sleeping the day away...so...

feeling weird

Today I feel weird; it's like the world is tiled the wrong way or something, idk...I wanted to visit my mom earlier today and had to wait like half an hour before leaving 'cause this leech decided to visit me last night and ended up sleeping on my couch overnight and wouldn't leave in a reasonable time. And the only reason I know this person is 'cause she was knocking on my door looking for someone who had a couple cigarettes. And then I found out my sisters hours have been cut...and then there's all this jagged wind crawling over everything. I didn't take my pills until less than half an hour ago, so maybe I'll feel better latter now that I've taken them.

wazzuuuuuuuuuuuup?????

Gosh, you (whoever the heck you are, aside from Mom and Danielle...) are prolly wondering that about ME(!). I cannot believe it's been over 10 days since my last update..

I saw A CLOCKWORK ORANGE a couple nights ago. It was GREAT! I don't think there's any other film you can really compare it to when it comes in terms of originality combined WITH emotional impact. It's got a great message and it does a fantastic job at conveying it. I think when it all comes down to it, the film is about how raising your children is important - no jail, no medicine, no religion will make your kids behave with regard to other human beings.

My CD collection has (again) shrunk. I have two CDs that I KNOW I want/want-to-keep. There's a couple others I'm considering buying, both by 70's prog-rock band Gentle Giant (ACQUIRING THE TASTE & OCTOPUS were the ones I had in mind...). I think they define "original" more so than any other band out there. The other 2 on my list are American Football's self titled album and Hidden In Plain View's RESOLUTION. I have other CDs, but it is my intention to get rid of them. I have two of them listed on Amazon, and 2 others that I'm thinking I might either sell locally or...idk...

My list is titled "sh!t I can use", which is the only reason I have for KEEPING whatever I buy. I buy stuff b/c I like shopping. I KEEP what I buy b/c I know it will benefit me to have it. If I have any doubt of its benefit (or shall I say "reasonable" doubt...or doubt that seems reasonable at whatever time...) I get rid of it.

I sold my 2 Trespassers Williams' CDS. They aren't BAD cds, but I don't think my emotional or mental state is enhanced by listening to their music.

Which leads me to think buying the GG CDs is kind of a bad idea...do THEY enhance my emotional or mental state? I semi-highly doubt it...

arrrm...

like the weather

the weather's been really awesome since two days prior to today...around this time of year, there's this scent that I keep smelling, like it's in the air or something, but it's also in my apt or house or wherever I happen to be living this time of year (I've been living in my apt for over 4 1/2 years, but I used to live in a house...). I like that scent, I don't know how to describe it, other than it's kind of a minty wintery smell...well, I'm not even sure that's accurate...but anyway...I hope when winter actually gets here, I don't get too depressed from the whatever has a 85% chance of causing "bitterness"...I like winter, usually. But then again, I like overcast mornings and such...rainy days when it hasn't yet started to rain are awesome.

My music collection is still really thin, although it's slowly getting better. I now have 5 or 6 CDs instead of 2 or 3...it's been this way for about a month...I got 2 CDs earlier this month - Michael Jackson's BAD and American Football's self titled full length. They've stayed in my collection so far...I also re-obtained a CD that I sold to my mother for $1 to give to my sister (my sister was at work when I sold it to my mom). I didn't buy a whole new copy, although if my sis ever listened to the copy my mother gave her, I would have...I just repayed my mom $1 and took the CD back.

Right now I'm listening to a CD-R mix that I'm not too in awe of...it's a nice steady mix of goodness though. I don't usually listen to it, but I've kept it 'cause it has 18 songs that I paid $0.89 each for...that's $15+ down the drain if I throw the CD away, 'cause they're no longer on my computer...if I could figure out a way to make this CD better, I'd import the songs from it onto my computer and get it done...but I guess blending songs isn't a talent I have...they pay people good money to do that, BTW...

so...

I guess that's it...seems like I had something else to say, but I don't remember what it is/was...