I have SO much more grace than I deserve. Grace of course is never "deserved".... That's actually an oxymoron. We don't deserve to have God Almighty ruling over us, but that's how it is. We don't deserve to exist. We don't deserve to be treated with respect, we also don't even deserve the suffering that comes upon us in some cases. Children who grew up in abusive households can attest to this. Even an adult doesn't usually deserve the kind of crap kids sometimes put up with. I, however, deserve that. I have not been engaging in the conduct that caused the amorites to be spewed from the land, but I have laid eyes upon it numerous times by choice. I had read Leviticus 18 but I apparently failed to meditate on it and somehow it just got tucked into some incredibly foggy section of my mind.
Granted, even watching a heterosexual married couple's homemade recordings would still be questionable at the very least. The Bible isn't very specific about what constitutes a violation of Jesus' expounding of Exodus 20:14. I'm fairly certain I've been guilty of that more times than I can count, not always or exclusively during my demonic internet dabblings.
Hoping I can KEEP all of this in view. More importantly, I'm hoping my sensitivity to it will increase exponentially and that I can at some point have the affection for Jesus that has been dulled incredibly over the years.
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