Eat the Rich...and be satisfied

There was a movie that came out in the 80s that I saw when I was around 7 or 8 years old, which would have been like 6 or 7 years after it originally came out in 1985. It was called THE STUFF.  The tagline was pretty catchy "Are you eating it OR IS IT EATING YOU?" It's a pretty applicable rhetorical question for a variety of circumstances, more than anything, I think, it applies to pornography.  I wish I could say that and not come across as hypocritical.  I've had to remind myself of this truth regarding sexual misconduct just throughout this one day that I've managed to keep myself away from it this week.  I've been so utterly prone to disregard God's word on the matter, it's become almost habitual...I find myself losing sight of what my mission in this life is and letting the dark parts of my inner man roam wild.  For about 10+/- years, from the time I was about 6(?) to about 16 or thereabouts, a somewhat long time, I honestly did not know there was God's word on the matter.  And then after I had an inkling of an idea, I was busy rejecting the very notion of The Bible being THE TRUTH, I certainly wasn't going to be obeying anything strictly because of what it said.  Now that I'm a Christian, I find myself at odds with what I know to be true.  It's been a slow progression; some might even say nonexistent.  I think I spent too many years trying to console myself into a kind of "It's ok, it's not that big of a deal", but then I'd run right back into the same quandary.  For every word of rebuke that God has, He follows that up with a word of comfort, which would be great if I just read The Bible and that were it.  But you read 1st Corinthians and then Ok, even if you never read it again, you still have several other similar passages that talk about disobedience and the risks that are inherent in that.   It's hard to know if I'm even on the right path with all of this urgency, knowing I need to do right by God and reject my fleshly impulses but finding myself maybe just a hair and a half shy of UN ABLE.  Maybe it'll come together
after awhile.  I can only hope, and pray from time to time..

But anyway...