some serious sheet THE BIG MOVIES list

1. Arrival (2016)
2. Back To The Future (1985)
3. Basket Case (1982)
4. Being There
5. Bringing Out The Dead
6. Candyman (1992)
7. Clockers
8. The Dark Knight Trilogy (2005-2012)
9. E.T.: The Extra-Terrestrial (1982)
10. Forrest Gump
11. Ghostbusters (1984) & Ghostbusters II
12. The Green Mile
13. Heathers (1989)
14. Hellraiser & Hellbound: Hellraiser II
15. The Last Unicorn
16. My Girl (1991)
17. nowhere (1997)
18. Ordinary People
19. Short Circuit
20. Starman (1984)
21. Taxi Driver (1976)
22. Terminator 2: Judgement Day
23. What's Eating Gilbert Grape?

deeper still

I've been wondering lately if I'm on the path to salvation or if I'm actually saved.  People insist you can't lose your salvation, but there's actually parts in The New Testament that talk about salvation as if it were a process.  One little segment, maybe in Hebrews (the book I've been reading lately), says something like urging the folks to finish their salvation or something like that, idk.....need to write these things down when they occur....rrg.  And Jesus says you will be recognized as a desciple if you heal the sick and cast out demons and all this supernatural stuff that you never see happening in this day & age.  Maybe that's because people pray for healing in private and the demons are either stunted by the boldness of Christians or uninterested in the ones who've already fallen away or never were "in" to begin with.  I think Jesus also included prophesying in that, but I'm not 100%...that word could I suppose mean simply being able to decipher truths that other people refuse to or simply cannot understand....idk.  I think prophesying I think seeing visions and all that kind of stuff....I guess that's Old School Propheteering.  Which makes sense since God never wanted to point everybody to His people, but rather he wanted His people to point to Himself.

And I swear my neck has gained two pounds alone this past week.  I swear I saw it jiggle like early this morning or last night, sometime around there...I shaved yesterday. A couple weeks ago I got some decent razors.  I'd been using these like 30 ct doitonce razors that cost like $5 or less a pkg.  I got a reusable handle and 6 blade-cartridges for like $20(ayg!).  I don't know if it was "worth" it, supposing I were the one paying for it with my own money, but it's definitely a nice thing to have.  I seriously could not live in Georgia if I were living by myself.  I don't think there's anywhere that costs less than $500 a month...there might be a studio apartment in some tiny town further out closer to Cobb County like in Acworth or something that might cost like $350 or $400....I don't think there's any reason to expect to find somehting like that though.  Housing in that price range probably gets snatched up as soon as its listed.  And then I would need to pay probably $150/mo for something like Uber.  No matter what need there is of it, I don't think an ability to get everything I need in one shopping trip is going to manifest itself in my living.  That's at least $40 just for one grocery shopping trip (ALDI) and then a return to (stuff I forgot).  Then if I need to do anything else, I either need to pay extra to do it online ($25?) or pay $25++ to go to WalMart or wherever it is I need to go ...if I needed to go to church (which I do) then I'd need to at least set aside $20 in case I can't get a ride to and/or from.  Usually I can't get a ride to.  But I can get a ride back home pretty easily.  Idk..   Might not need $150.  Could probably do fine on $100 or less maybe.  It really depends on the time of day, I would think....I don't have the Uber app, so I don't know for sure.  I've had it on my phone before, I've used it a couple times but I haven't ever routinely used it at any point ever.  

Not even sure why I'm talking about this,  Ithink I had a thought based on something I wrote or was about to write, but it probably would've made more sense to express what that thought was before totally changing the subject all crazy like.

OH....that's right.  I was talking bou the razors.  Yeah.  My sister charges rock bottom rent for me to live in the not quite as nice level of the house.  I don't mind it being not as nice.  I'm not complaining.  I used to live in a rathole of my own making and didn't mind because I was in tune with whatever music or movie I was engaged with at any given time.  I wasn't spending any significant amount of time standing around looking at how clean (or unclean) my room/apartment is.  That's probably something I could have done if I had cleaned it more, it would have given me more opportunities to relax and kick back........enjoy life more...idk.

So anyway.  my face is more shaved than it's ever been, even though there's still some fuzz on my face and a couple tiny spots I missed.  The crazy thing really is how few cuts I've gotten.  I've bled a few tiny spots, maybe 5 or 6, mostly in groups of 2, and they didn't hurt of course and they dried up in no time.  Swizzy!

Back to my original topic, I Just feel like often I lack something. It could be worse, I guess.  I don't know if I feel as shallow as I did a few years ago.  I guess I'm just greedy sometimes.  I mainly just worry that I'm slipping away too often.  I keep indulging my eyeballs and watching stuff that I shouldn't watch (lest thee haf a namest!) and I don't know why but it seems to be the culprit, if Biblical teachings are any indication.  I guess I should quit asking why.  It seems absurd.  What's absurd really is the fact that I'm not married.  I'm not married because I'm impatient and I eat way too damn much.  I get impatient with weight loss.  I get impatient with cravings for food.  I get impatient with finances.  What I need to do is read The Bible, take a break AS NEEDED (not as I please) and then read The Bible some more.  That sounds incredibly narrow.  What's this about a Narrow Gate?  Oh........