Sunday, September 29, 2013
It's HLV because it can't be HIV
Swagbucks made me enter a code before granting me 29 whopping Swagbucks at once. The code was "HLV". They do this to ensure it's me searching and not some software I hired to do it for me. They think they were being sensitive making me enter h L v instead of h I v, but really, how dumb do they think I am? I mean, what if I DID have HIV? How would this make me feel? "Oh, I'm not REMINDED that I have HIV b/c it doesn't SAY HIV, it says HLV, so no biggie". My gosh. Insensitive bactards.
Saturday, September 21, 2013
Giant
Giants among us, subtly towering over all of me, with their thick skin and thicker heads
Giants get their way, whatever they want, all is well
Giants stomp their feet and keep Mother Earth turning properly
They leave me here to bleed until I grow in size
I die before the ambulance can get here
Giants get their way, whatever they want, all is well
Giants stomp their feet and keep Mother Earth turning properly
They leave me here to bleed until I grow in size
I die before the ambulance can get here
Friday, September 20, 2013
Nothing compares 2 It
Listening to "Hold On Loosely" by .38 Special; that and "Caught Up In You" are like two of the best songs ever written. I'm not big on 89% of THE BEST OF .38 SPECIAL, of course I do also like "Second Chance"...trying to summon a compilation of knockout songs akin to those, but I can't think of anything. Most of the songs that were coming to mind were also seminal songs of their era that are still on radio, but they didn't have the effect that those do. For awhile I was wondering why you never heard "Don't Stop Believing" by Journey on the radio, like back in the late '90's I think...I think there was a scene in BIG DADDY (1999) where Adam Sandler's character was playing it to his girlfriend-hopeful. Maybe I'm getting the songs confused. Idk...anyway. Then a couple years or less later, radio started playing it more regularly and now I'm sick of it. Just doesn't stimulate my brain the way it did. I remember I had similar feelings toward Bryan Adams' "Heaven". That song just seems so boring to me nowadays. I just got done listening to it while typing "all" of this and it had no impact whatsoever. And it's been like a loong time since I even heard it on the radio. I hadn't sought it out for a year? or longer? Now "Second Chance" is playing, great song as I expected and it's been almost as long since I've heard that one. Not as good as "Caught Up In You" and "Hold On Loosely"...
Wednesday, September 18, 2013
To Wish For Impossible Things
I wish I could shop at the mall and not feel like I just wasted everything I have and everything I am buying junk...
I wish I could just be happy with:
1. INVISIBLE TOUCH
2. OINGO BOINGO SKELETONS IN THE CLOSET: THE BEST OF
3. GHOSTBUSTERS & GHOSTBUSTERS II COLLECTOR'S EDITION (VHS)
1a I wish I could plaster the cover-art for INVISIBLE TOUCH onto my wall.
1b I wish the slightest lift of a finger didn't cost $50
2a I wish I could put to words why I LOVE the cover-art for SKELETONS IN THE CLOSET
2b 2a is a stupid wish, but if I could own a t-shirt with the design on it, maybe I could gather my own cult following of like-minded people...uh...
3a.I wish I could own a worthwhile copy of GHOSTBUSTERS & its' sequel in widescreen, but since cover-art for movies has taken a steep dive into mediocrity, I would need a VCR and to forgo widescreen (Ghostbusters IS available in widescreen on VHS, but the cover-art is extremely disrespectful to all the things that made Ghostbusters such a great movie, same as the 1999 DVD, which is also the only DVD copy worth owning on DVD since the only other edition was severely tampered with for some weird reason...), and VCRs are practically extinct, save for ones that break down within 6 months or cost $200 to obtain......
I wish a hot woman wearing a GHOSTBUSTERS t-shirt would lay back on her car and say "Do you want this body?"
I wish I understood better where I stand in the world. I used to think "who doesn't have a car?", now I feel like it's ridiculous how many DO have cars, knowing that I'm not the only one living in poverty...
I wish I loved God. I wish I knew that just believing could keep me from going to - and staying in - Hell.
I wish I could just be happy with:
1. INVISIBLE TOUCH
2. OINGO BOINGO SKELETONS IN THE CLOSET: THE BEST OF
3. GHOSTBUSTERS & GHOSTBUSTERS II COLLECTOR'S EDITION (VHS)
1a I wish I could plaster the cover-art for INVISIBLE TOUCH onto my wall.
1b I wish the slightest lift of a finger didn't cost $50
2a I wish I could put to words why I LOVE the cover-art for SKELETONS IN THE CLOSET
2b 2a is a stupid wish, but if I could own a t-shirt with the design on it, maybe I could gather my own cult following of like-minded people...uh...
3a.I wish I could own a worthwhile copy of GHOSTBUSTERS & its' sequel in widescreen, but since cover-art for movies has taken a steep dive into mediocrity, I would need a VCR and to forgo widescreen (Ghostbusters IS available in widescreen on VHS, but the cover-art is extremely disrespectful to all the things that made Ghostbusters such a great movie, same as the 1999 DVD, which is also the only DVD copy worth owning on DVD since the only other edition was severely tampered with for some weird reason...), and VCRs are practically extinct, save for ones that break down within 6 months or cost $200 to obtain......
I wish a hot woman wearing a GHOSTBUSTERS t-shirt would lay back on her car and say "Do you want this body?"
I wish I understood better where I stand in the world. I used to think "who doesn't have a car?", now I feel like it's ridiculous how many DO have cars, knowing that I'm not the only one living in poverty...
I wish I loved God. I wish I knew that just believing could keep me from going to - and staying in - Hell.
Sunday, September 15, 2013
Far Beyond Driven..
...to page 348 on SEVEN TYPES OF AMBIGUITY by Elliot Perlman; now on "part 5" out of 7. Just read 22 pages of it today. Hadn't picked up in gosh I don't know how long...probably a month? At least...
Internet's been f'ing up since yesterday, per my personal observations. My mom was experiencing problems the day before then as well as yesterday. Hmm...
Beautiful weather. I took a walk to Hastings and found they have GEORGE WASHINGTON after all. I guess it was rented out to someone else last time I looked for it. I didn't care much for it. Kinda meandering. I figured I'd get THE JOY LUCK CLUB watched, I've checked it out from the library like 5 times...now I'm done with it - FIN-A-LLLLY!!! I can return it w/ no late fees and no nagging in my conscience. I'll return GEORGE WASHINGTON later today and get $0.50 store credit. The reason I walked to Hastings was I had a Barnes & Noble $10 Gift Card that I "won" at MyPoints primarily for clicking on paid emails and taking/attempting to take surveys. It took over a year to acquire enough points to get a gift card, but it finally happened. I sold the B/N GC to a gift card exchange website called ABC Gift Cards for an $8.19 Amazon gift card b/c I don't trust BN and unless you have to have your merchandise in brandspankin'new condition, your dollar goes farther at Amazon; they have a bigger variety of offers on used merchandise and the prices are better. There's a boatload of CDs and DVDs you can find for $0.01 + $3.99 S&H. B&N's typical minimum used price is $1.99 + $2.99 S&H. So anyway; with that $8.19 Amazon e-code, I had bought ECHOES: THE BEST OF PINK FLOYD for $5.96 w/ S&H. I had bought it a month or so before then, b/c I had checked it out from the library several times and by the time it arrived in the mail I started noticing how pointless the whole compilation was; half of disc 1 are interludes and the songs themselves are droning and repetitive, especially the title track. The classic-rock radio staple "Money" is typical anti-capitalist b.s., and there are several famous Pink Floyd cuts absent, mainly "Have A Cigar" and "The Dogs Of War". I can't remember for sure if "Welcome To The Machine" was present or not...I don't think it was...but anyway...I had decided to sell it before it arrived and Hastings gave me $7+ for it. So, this past week, I wasn't feeling any throbbing desire to own anything, but I knew I was at least going to want to rent THE CONJURING when it comes out October 22nd, and I figured I could get AT LEAST $4 cash if I sold Hastings another copy of ECHOES: TBSo'PinkFloyd, and if I chose to get store credit, they'd give me $5+. So I bought it again, this time for $5.96, as I said - cheaper than the last copy I had bought - and sold it for the same amount they gave me last time (wowow!!). Being myself in a biggyish ("midsize") town with the typical music offerings you'd expect people who don't know the world beyond radio to be fed, I couldn't find anything worth buying that I haven't already owned at least twice, except for things that were beyond the $7.49 mark.. Beats the helk out of me why the anthemic emo of Last Winter is so obscure. But it is. So Hastings doesn't have 'em. They have the latest Joy Division and The Smiths best-of collections, but nothing else by those bands. So, I was left with nothing to use my store credit on except the rental of GEORGE WASHINGTON. So I wasted $1.79 on a Jones brand green apple - flavored soda. I still have $5.17 or something like that left. I'll have $1.25 left after I rent THE CONJURING, provided I don't get stupid and buy some dumb CD before THE CONJURING comes out over a month from now.
My sister bought me a Payless gift card after I discovered they are one of the few if not the only chain stores with a decent selection of wide-width shoes w/ halfway decent price tags. The last pair of $12 shoes I bought at WalMart lasted me apprx 5 months. These L.A. Gear shoes I have were bought at Nearly Perfect Shoes, a shoe store for functional shoes that don't meet manufacturer standards. They cost almost $30 w/ tax and are already half way broken down. They were acquired in mid-late November. They'd lasted I'd say about 6 months before starting the break down process, which they are still going through. The cool thing about the Payless gift card is it's a $40 value, but she bought it at ABC Gift Cards, so it only cost'd her $31.60. If it gets here by Sunday (the end of Saturday, whatever), I can apply it to my newly-created PayLess.com account and utilize a 20% coupon which takes two pairs of Champion shoes (during their BOGO 1/2off sale) and reduces their cost by a whopping $14. I think both pairs of the Champion shoes should last about a year, maybe 1.5 years if I wear them until they can't be worn any longer, based on what I've read from customers who use them frequently. But with the coupon and the GC discount, that means what once was a $25 pair of shoes (give or take a couple dollars...) becomes a $17 pair of shoes, which when compared to the ever-shrinking usability of the shoes I'd been been getting at WalMart, means I'm at least breaking even.
I had looked for PRIMER (indie styled sci-fi) at Hastings, Amazon doesn't even have a brand new copy of it. Used ones last I checked about a week ago were $17++. So someone probably took it from Hastings and sold it. Idk...anyway; I managed to find a good time in the middle of the night while awake to watch it on Netflix via my mother's Wii. It wasn't the greatness everyone had proclaimed it to be. I tried watching UPSTREAM COLOR, too, and while more enjoyable and intelligible, still not together enough to keep my attention. I found some other thing I'd been wanting to see on NetFlix, added it to my Q, 'cause it was so out of line with what I was looking for at that moment; I guess it was a horror film or something, idk...but I wasn't in the mood for it. So I figured I'd come back for it sometime...not much telling when though. I like that show NEW GIRL, Zooey is absolutely gorgeous and the show is mostly about her, and the guyz are funny too. I don't really like the idea of stopping everything for a freakin' TV show. The only alternative I have though is to buy season one for $22.99 @ Amazon. I don't think I can even afford that though, not in October, I mean (definitely not right now). Maybe in November...if I get some birthday $. I think I need to buy a new DVD player, the one I have is starting to fall apart. I listed it on Amazon, it's very old, still working, but when you can hear its wheels turning, that's not a good sign. It makes noises while loading discs that are in less than perfect condition, the more horrid the condition of the disc is, the more noise it makes. And then it fails to playback the disc in its entirety without error if it's scratched just so...plus the thing is almost 10 years old. It's like a ticking time bomb...
Internet's been f'ing up since yesterday, per my personal observations. My mom was experiencing problems the day before then as well as yesterday. Hmm...
Beautiful weather. I took a walk to Hastings and found they have GEORGE WASHINGTON after all. I guess it was rented out to someone else last time I looked for it. I didn't care much for it. Kinda meandering. I figured I'd get THE JOY LUCK CLUB watched, I've checked it out from the library like 5 times...now I'm done with it - FIN-A-LLLLY!!! I can return it w/ no late fees and no nagging in my conscience. I'll return GEORGE WASHINGTON later today and get $0.50 store credit. The reason I walked to Hastings was I had a Barnes & Noble $10 Gift Card that I "won" at MyPoints primarily for clicking on paid emails and taking/attempting to take surveys. It took over a year to acquire enough points to get a gift card, but it finally happened. I sold the B/N GC to a gift card exchange website called ABC Gift Cards for an $8.19 Amazon gift card b/c I don't trust BN and unless you have to have your merchandise in brandspankin'new condition, your dollar goes farther at Amazon; they have a bigger variety of offers on used merchandise and the prices are better. There's a boatload of CDs and DVDs you can find for $0.01 + $3.99 S&H. B&N's typical minimum used price is $1.99 + $2.99 S&H. So anyway; with that $8.19 Amazon e-code, I had bought ECHOES: THE BEST OF PINK FLOYD for $5.96 w/ S&H. I had bought it a month or so before then, b/c I had checked it out from the library several times and by the time it arrived in the mail I started noticing how pointless the whole compilation was; half of disc 1 are interludes and the songs themselves are droning and repetitive, especially the title track. The classic-rock radio staple "Money" is typical anti-capitalist b.s., and there are several famous Pink Floyd cuts absent, mainly "Have A Cigar" and "The Dogs Of War". I can't remember for sure if "Welcome To The Machine" was present or not...I don't think it was...but anyway...I had decided to sell it before it arrived and Hastings gave me $7+ for it. So, this past week, I wasn't feeling any throbbing desire to own anything, but I knew I was at least going to want to rent THE CONJURING when it comes out October 22nd, and I figured I could get AT LEAST $4 cash if I sold Hastings another copy of ECHOES: TBSo'PinkFloyd, and if I chose to get store credit, they'd give me $5+. So I bought it again, this time for $5.96, as I said - cheaper than the last copy I had bought - and sold it for the same amount they gave me last time (wowow!!). Being myself in a biggyish ("midsize") town with the typical music offerings you'd expect people who don't know the world beyond radio to be fed, I couldn't find anything worth buying that I haven't already owned at least twice, except for things that were beyond the $7.49 mark.. Beats the helk out of me why the anthemic emo of Last Winter is so obscure. But it is. So Hastings doesn't have 'em. They have the latest Joy Division and The Smiths best-of collections, but nothing else by those bands. So, I was left with nothing to use my store credit on except the rental of GEORGE WASHINGTON. So I wasted $1.79 on a Jones brand green apple - flavored soda. I still have $5.17 or something like that left. I'll have $1.25 left after I rent THE CONJURING, provided I don't get stupid and buy some dumb CD before THE CONJURING comes out over a month from now.
My sister bought me a Payless gift card after I discovered they are one of the few if not the only chain stores with a decent selection of wide-width shoes w/ halfway decent price tags. The last pair of $12 shoes I bought at WalMart lasted me apprx 5 months. These L.A. Gear shoes I have were bought at Nearly Perfect Shoes, a shoe store for functional shoes that don't meet manufacturer standards. They cost almost $30 w/ tax and are already half way broken down. They were acquired in mid-late November. They'd lasted I'd say about 6 months before starting the break down process, which they are still going through. The cool thing about the Payless gift card is it's a $40 value, but she bought it at ABC Gift Cards, so it only cost'd her $31.60. If it gets here by Sunday (the end of Saturday, whatever), I can apply it to my newly-created PayLess.com account and utilize a 20% coupon which takes two pairs of Champion shoes (during their BOGO 1/2off sale) and reduces their cost by a whopping $14. I think both pairs of the Champion shoes should last about a year, maybe 1.5 years if I wear them until they can't be worn any longer, based on what I've read from customers who use them frequently. But with the coupon and the GC discount, that means what once was a $25 pair of shoes (give or take a couple dollars...) becomes a $17 pair of shoes, which when compared to the ever-shrinking usability of the shoes I'd been been getting at WalMart, means I'm at least breaking even.
I had looked for PRIMER (indie styled sci-fi) at Hastings, Amazon doesn't even have a brand new copy of it. Used ones last I checked about a week ago were $17++. So someone probably took it from Hastings and sold it. Idk...anyway; I managed to find a good time in the middle of the night while awake to watch it on Netflix via my mother's Wii. It wasn't the greatness everyone had proclaimed it to be. I tried watching UPSTREAM COLOR, too, and while more enjoyable and intelligible, still not together enough to keep my attention. I found some other thing I'd been wanting to see on NetFlix, added it to my Q, 'cause it was so out of line with what I was looking for at that moment; I guess it was a horror film or something, idk...but I wasn't in the mood for it. So I figured I'd come back for it sometime...not much telling when though. I like that show NEW GIRL, Zooey is absolutely gorgeous and the show is mostly about her, and the guyz are funny too. I don't really like the idea of stopping everything for a freakin' TV show. The only alternative I have though is to buy season one for $22.99 @ Amazon. I don't think I can even afford that though, not in October, I mean (definitely not right now). Maybe in November...if I get some birthday $. I think I need to buy a new DVD player, the one I have is starting to fall apart. I listed it on Amazon, it's very old, still working, but when you can hear its wheels turning, that's not a good sign. It makes noises while loading discs that are in less than perfect condition, the more horrid the condition of the disc is, the more noise it makes. And then it fails to playback the disc in its entirety without error if it's scratched just so...plus the thing is almost 10 years old. It's like a ticking time bomb...
Wednesday, September 4, 2013
Under The Silver Of Machines...
Been listening to anthemic emo by way of Last Winter. Their 2nd CD doesn't have the palpable romantic pop-rockers, but it's like WAY better. It's just amazing. Listening to Weird Al's GREATEST HITS (1989). Not really digging it, I just remember thinking about it on the walk back from Kidd's which I went to get a cappuccino. I guess there's some artists that I like to think about, 'cause I imagine talking about them to someone as if anyone cared, and I always amaze myself how deeply immersed I am in some bands' history. I'm almost a scholar on Genesis. I probably know Aerosmith's discography and biography better than I ought to, given how little I listen to them, although I used to listen to them constantly as a tween.
Ok, so I ended playback. Now I'm listening to SKELETONS IN THE CLOSET: THE BEST OF OINGO BOINGO (1989 as well). I subscribed to Rhapsody 8/30. Nice to be able to LEGALLY listen to pretty much whatever I want to listen to. Grooveshark isn't illegal, but the music industry sure wishes it were. Rhapsody now has a $4.99 plan. I was wondering how they were able to compete with Rdio and MOG. Of course, Spotify is $9.99, or was last time I was subscribed, but they're like a Facebook thing, so people who love Facebook can have it. Plus, it's noteworthy for being kickstarted in part by Peter Gabriel (wooooah...woooah...)
Anyway.
I'm being very slothy. I have not exercised regularly aside from leisurely paced walking in the past two weeks. I did 15 squats today and two or three hand release pushups. I need to sit the fruuk up!
My CPRC worker (or is it CRPC? !!!) had to interview me for pt 1 of 2 of my annual assessment where everyone gets down to figure out why I'm in the CPRC?? program and where I'm going to be in the program. It's really not essential. I should probably say to heck w/ it and just let myself be discharged, but I have a real hard time making friends. I can socialize with a variety of people, but I don't connect with people easily. I know Ashley isn't a friend, but she's someone who comes by and talks with me every once or twice a week. It's one small step above ground, but still...
My official goal I guess is weight loss. I'm gonna aim for 5 lbs and see how that goes. Idk. I might be optimistic and change it to 10. I doubt I'll achieve 10 lbs...not at this rate and then in winter I'm likely to gain weight...rrrg...
I'm already out of $. I have $5 left. Until Oct 1. Yeesh. I got a CD coming in the mail though. Yay. Oh, I also got $18 worth of Amazon gift cards pending receipt. One of them is in limbo ("processing") [$8] and two more [$5 each] are awaiting approval, should have them in a few days...and then I got $20 in rewards from a survey site called Valued Opinions. I am $2.25 shy of what I need to redeem my reward dollars, and if it weren't for the whole "pending" situation, they'd be here - and gone already, probably. They say it could take 6 weeks to end pend'n. It's only been less than two weeks and I'm already feelin' like a cigarette withdrawy...eeh! But anyway; once all this gets added up, that comes to $38. WOWWOWOW...not so fast...
Ok, so I ended playback. Now I'm listening to SKELETONS IN THE CLOSET: THE BEST OF OINGO BOINGO (1989 as well). I subscribed to Rhapsody 8/30. Nice to be able to LEGALLY listen to pretty much whatever I want to listen to. Grooveshark isn't illegal, but the music industry sure wishes it were. Rhapsody now has a $4.99 plan. I was wondering how they were able to compete with Rdio and MOG. Of course, Spotify is $9.99, or was last time I was subscribed, but they're like a Facebook thing, so people who love Facebook can have it. Plus, it's noteworthy for being kickstarted in part by Peter Gabriel (wooooah...woooah...)
Anyway.
I'm being very slothy. I have not exercised regularly aside from leisurely paced walking in the past two weeks. I did 15 squats today and two or three hand release pushups. I need to sit the fruuk up!
My CPRC worker (or is it CRPC? !!!) had to interview me for pt 1 of 2 of my annual assessment where everyone gets down to figure out why I'm in the CPRC?? program and where I'm going to be in the program. It's really not essential. I should probably say to heck w/ it and just let myself be discharged, but I have a real hard time making friends. I can socialize with a variety of people, but I don't connect with people easily. I know Ashley isn't a friend, but she's someone who comes by and talks with me every once or twice a week. It's one small step above ground, but still...
My official goal I guess is weight loss. I'm gonna aim for 5 lbs and see how that goes. Idk. I might be optimistic and change it to 10. I doubt I'll achieve 10 lbs...not at this rate and then in winter I'm likely to gain weight...rrrg...
I'm already out of $. I have $5 left. Until Oct 1. Yeesh. I got a CD coming in the mail though. Yay. Oh, I also got $18 worth of Amazon gift cards pending receipt. One of them is in limbo ("processing") [$8] and two more [$5 each] are awaiting approval, should have them in a few days...and then I got $20 in rewards from a survey site called Valued Opinions. I am $2.25 shy of what I need to redeem my reward dollars, and if it weren't for the whole "pending" situation, they'd be here - and gone already, probably. They say it could take 6 weeks to end pend'n. It's only been less than two weeks and I'm already feelin' like a cigarette withdrawy...eeh! But anyway; once all this gets added up, that comes to $38. WOWWOWOW...not so fast...
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