Still coasting along mostly. I was in need of sleep due to having missed out on a great deal of it over this past week, so I found myself yawning in church toward the end and prior to that feeling like I wasn't properly composed for worship. I didn't loudly proclaim the words that I sang. I missed chunks of what the pastor was preaching. I got home and turned on the computer and then soon after turned it off and took a 2 hour nap. I'm still foggy in da head, and I laid down for a little while, about an hour ago. Nothing happened. I guess that can kinda be expected when you got machine-gunning, tap dancing Michael Jackson exuding from your sound system. The two I have in my collection are BAD and DANGEROUS, both meant to showcase his "tough side". It's weird to think how much of MJ's out put I assumed was The Jackson 5. I didn't realize until a couple or so years ago that he was still performing with his brothers during his whirlwind success with THRILLER. The pre-OFF THE WALL material that bore the Michael Jackson brand sounded almost identical to the stuff he sang while under The Jackson 5 umbrella. I guess knowing the difference before hand does make a difference. The album VICTORY that The Jacksons (The Jackson 5 - 1 + 2) didn't really sound like THRILLER, but it did sound pretty similar to BAD, albeit with lower production values.
Aaanyway. For the most part, I've done better at conducting myself since I last posted here. I'm still stuck in my shellshocked-ish existence, minimizing eye contact and interaction with other people. There was a "Men's pancake breakfast" yesterday at 7:30 and I was racking my brain trying to think of a good reason to attend. I didn't understand the concept at all. Breakfast w/o women? I don't understand the significance. It probably made more sense to people who live closer to the church doors. A 20 minute drive to and then another back seemed like a waste of time and honestly it still does.
So...hmmmm...I sold a bunch of stuff that I was hoping to sell at Amazon or Discogs to CD Warehouse in Marietta. Not really "a bunch", er se, it was 5 items or something like that. I don't know how many I sold, but I got $15 out of it and now I have $3.49 coming from a sale I made at Amazon. I used some of that to buy STIR OF ECHOES. I got a Blu ray edition of it b/c they ddin't have any DVD copies of it. The BD was only $3.99 + tax. That's only slightly more than it would have been had I bought it from one of the sellers on Amazon.com/The Amazon Marketplace. So the total cash I got was $10.77. I used $0.60 of those last two digits to buy a box of instant pudding mix and I bought a Christmas card for me grumma at a Hallmark store. This morning me and my Mom went to Starbucks. I got a hot chocolate b/c I didn't feel like spending $4-$5 on a coffee and they do make some real good hot chocolate. I should have requested they use skim milk, but o well. I almost always forget to request that. I don't think 2% milk has a heck of a lot more calories than skim milk...if I drank 2 or 3 cups of Starbucks hot chocolate in a day, that'd be another story, but those extra 50 or so calories combined with my normal intake can make a difference...the real difference was the meal at Wendy's I ate for lunch paid for by a friendly couple who drove me home from church since my mom had a birthday party to attend. She was invited, so she went. She knows her name, I forgot what she told me it is, and neither of us know how, but she's related to my sister's husband somehow. She just turned 2 years old, which means she was a "behind the scenes" human being when I attended my sister's wedding in July of 2014.
You'd think I'd shut up by now, seeing how little I have to actually talk about...ugh...ok. Cue fade/end credits.
Sunday, October 23, 2016
Thursday, October 20, 2016
better than 10/15, still not as good as 10/05
I went too long w/o reading The Bible and I could tell circa Saturday 10/15 as I stormed inward and outward through Amazon.com's customer review forum trying to knock sense into people who apparently never had any interest in making sense.
I remembered just now as I was typing this to delete those comments, or at least the ones I remember...
I read The Bible on Sunday and Monday. I brought my cell phone & Gideon's translation of The New Testament to my sis' house where I spent most of Wednesday (yesterday) and I spent not a whole lot of time on either, but nonetheless spent a lot more time on my cell phone than I did my Bible, to put it mildly.
I've been driving myself mad with lust. I don't see an end to that. I swear, my libido is more in my face now than it was when I was 16. And that's just freakin' weird, b/c my libido has existed ever since I was 6 or 7 years old.
It's all part of the same problem --- I don't do well as making bridges between myself and others and I never have. I keep thinking I might as well uproot and go to Haiti or someplace as a full time professional missionary, but I don't even know if that would solve the problem. How do you mission to people when you're heavily reluctant to say "hi" to people you pass on the street? Surel, I keep thinking, I'm just being impatient. That impatience could be taken further as in "Oh, why not just die already?" but I know this shell that houses the core of me will be taken away in due time. It's not my call to make. God doesn't need help. He doesn't need help spreading The Good News about Jesus even. He wants us to help in specific matters, such as evangelizing, and he demands it because laziness and cowardice would get in the way of things if he had made it sound like an option. Love of God leads to obeying his commands. Obeying his commands is beneficial to both Him and us. Cases where that is not true are instances of Satan ruling over the mind and God does dwell in vessels that are pumping black ooze instead of healthy blood. People need a blood transfusion that doctors can't provide. Doctors can often extend your existence, but they can't make your life worth saving.
My natural personality is at an advantage, I do often consider myself a nice guy overall, but the digital rampage I spoke of in paragraphs 1 & 2 are not a recent development. I have always been a self centered greedy snot. You might even say I'm a natural born hypocrite, always complaining about how much better the world would be if they took the plain as day message of Michael Jackson's "Man In The Mirror" to heart all the while comparing myself to others instead of looking at MY man in the mirror and making improvements as I see opportunities to do so. Obviously, not everyone is guilty of overt ugliness. Most people in Western culture aren't. Someone at The Washington Post described the disenfranchisement with D.C., stating there is no singular reason for people's distrust and disgust with politicians, therefore there's no easy way to fix the problem. Instead it appears to be a case of death by 1,000 paper cuts. How many paper cuts does the average person have to deal with on an average day? Do you trust your neighbor? If so, I'm happy for you. That means life's been really good to you. Most of us need to keep our doors locked to keep thieves at bay. And if that doesn't work, you can thank your 60" 4K TV if you're still alive and happy to be so by dawn's early light.
I've been eating like crazy since my EBT card was reloaded (the 13th) and if I haven't gained 15 lbs, I have God to thank for that, but I'm either stupid as all get out or The Higi Station (a hi-tech scale) at Publix on Baker Rd in Acworth Georgia needs to be fixed. That thing gave me 3 different #s in the span of less than 10 minutes. One was 218 lbs. One was 220 or something like that and the other was 238. None of those sound right. I'd weighed myself about a week prior and the scale said 264. A week before then it said 268. I have done nothing to cause a decrease of 20-50 lbs since I weighed 264. I might have lost 5 or so lbs, but by now I think I've gained it back and then some.
Meanwhile, at the Bat-cave...two Terminators were sent back through time.......
I remembered just now as I was typing this to delete those comments, or at least the ones I remember...
I read The Bible on Sunday and Monday. I brought my cell phone & Gideon's translation of The New Testament to my sis' house where I spent most of Wednesday (yesterday) and I spent not a whole lot of time on either, but nonetheless spent a lot more time on my cell phone than I did my Bible, to put it mildly.
I've been driving myself mad with lust. I don't see an end to that. I swear, my libido is more in my face now than it was when I was 16. And that's just freakin' weird, b/c my libido has existed ever since I was 6 or 7 years old.
It's all part of the same problem --- I don't do well as making bridges between myself and others and I never have. I keep thinking I might as well uproot and go to Haiti or someplace as a full time professional missionary, but I don't even know if that would solve the problem. How do you mission to people when you're heavily reluctant to say "hi" to people you pass on the street? Surel, I keep thinking, I'm just being impatient. That impatience could be taken further as in "Oh, why not just die already?" but I know this shell that houses the core of me will be taken away in due time. It's not my call to make. God doesn't need help. He doesn't need help spreading The Good News about Jesus even. He wants us to help in specific matters, such as evangelizing, and he demands it because laziness and cowardice would get in the way of things if he had made it sound like an option. Love of God leads to obeying his commands. Obeying his commands is beneficial to both Him and us. Cases where that is not true are instances of Satan ruling over the mind and God does dwell in vessels that are pumping black ooze instead of healthy blood. People need a blood transfusion that doctors can't provide. Doctors can often extend your existence, but they can't make your life worth saving.
My natural personality is at an advantage, I do often consider myself a nice guy overall, but the digital rampage I spoke of in paragraphs 1 & 2 are not a recent development. I have always been a self centered greedy snot. You might even say I'm a natural born hypocrite, always complaining about how much better the world would be if they took the plain as day message of Michael Jackson's "Man In The Mirror" to heart all the while comparing myself to others instead of looking at MY man in the mirror and making improvements as I see opportunities to do so. Obviously, not everyone is guilty of overt ugliness. Most people in Western culture aren't. Someone at The Washington Post described the disenfranchisement with D.C., stating there is no singular reason for people's distrust and disgust with politicians, therefore there's no easy way to fix the problem. Instead it appears to be a case of death by 1,000 paper cuts. How many paper cuts does the average person have to deal with on an average day? Do you trust your neighbor? If so, I'm happy for you. That means life's been really good to you. Most of us need to keep our doors locked to keep thieves at bay. And if that doesn't work, you can thank your 60" 4K TV if you're still alive and happy to be so by dawn's early light.
I've been eating like crazy since my EBT card was reloaded (the 13th) and if I haven't gained 15 lbs, I have God to thank for that, but I'm either stupid as all get out or The Higi Station (a hi-tech scale) at Publix on Baker Rd in Acworth Georgia needs to be fixed. That thing gave me 3 different #s in the span of less than 10 minutes. One was 218 lbs. One was 220 or something like that and the other was 238. None of those sound right. I'd weighed myself about a week prior and the scale said 264. A week before then it said 268. I have done nothing to cause a decrease of 20-50 lbs since I weighed 264. I might have lost 5 or so lbs, but by now I think I've gained it back and then some.
Meanwhile, at the Bat-cave...two Terminators were sent back through time.......
Sunday, October 9, 2016
ain't right
If you are going into a movie with low expectations, then I have to wonder why? If you're going into a movie with high expectations, then you're more likely to be disappointed if your cinematic taste buds have developed at all, and for the crop of folks who were born after 9/11, I guess those cinematic taste buds may take awhile longer to develop if they ever do at all since so much of what's come out has been plastic. The nice thing about movies -- the good ones -- is their ability to entertain you despite the cruelty they depict. I guess as this nation/culture adapts an attitude of "there's nothing wrong with me", the more they embrace what further wrongs lurk deep inside of themselves, and thus can accept that in other people. I don't think it's gotten to that point as of yet. There's still an army of God-fearing people in this world to provide a glimmer of The Holy Spirit within society as a whole.
Films like BOOGIE NIGHTS --- even though the writer didn't seem to have any message to convey, I found large parts of it to be rather disturbing, but nonetheless the pretty visuals and the storybook feel of it all kept me hooked. It's not until the film gets to wrapping up that you finally realize the film had no message. In a way, I suppose that's not such a bad thing. The fact that the film came out when it did I think gives it the perfect time test. You can feel the spiritual pulse of society by seeing how it reacts to watching BOOGIE NIGHTS. Does the film still disturb people today? How will people react to it 50 years from now?
Thankfully Martin Scorsese is still making movies. He's one of the few genuine talents who hasn't lost his touch. I wasn't impressed with SHUTTER ISLAND, but on the other hand, not every movie he's made was a sensational hit. He's made several movies that barely made a blip on the radar. THE KING OF COMEDY, KUNDUN...I personally didn't think much of AFTER HOURS, although many people feel that way about BRINGING OUT THE DEAD, which is one of my favorite movies ever. And then he's got "Just okay" movies that were kinda overhyped. CASINO, GANGS OF NEW YORK, etc.but I truly did enjoy THE DEPARTED...I haven't seen THE WOLF OF WALL STREET, but I might give it a try one of these days. I'm greatly looking forward to that movie about missionaries in Japan with Liam Neeson...I do wonder if that's still moving forward...gotta check on that I guess.
Anyway...Just got me thinking b/c I have to wonder about the standards of people who have so much fundamental criticism of a movie like 2016's GHOSTBUSTERS and then try and defend it like "It's not terrible." BATMAN & ROBIN isn't terrible. No movie that costs $100M+ is going to be terrible. That still doesn't excuse the lack of greatness that Hollywood is providing us. The talent is there. If Hollywood had an application process, I'd say they're not hiring. But that's not the case. They are hiring. They're just being very lazy in who they hire. They aren't looking for people who will get the job done right. They're just looking to get the job done and the end result is Hollywood being a con artistry...how many times does one get fooled before they start sharing the blame?
Films like BOOGIE NIGHTS --- even though the writer didn't seem to have any message to convey, I found large parts of it to be rather disturbing, but nonetheless the pretty visuals and the storybook feel of it all kept me hooked. It's not until the film gets to wrapping up that you finally realize the film had no message. In a way, I suppose that's not such a bad thing. The fact that the film came out when it did I think gives it the perfect time test. You can feel the spiritual pulse of society by seeing how it reacts to watching BOOGIE NIGHTS. Does the film still disturb people today? How will people react to it 50 years from now?
Thankfully Martin Scorsese is still making movies. He's one of the few genuine talents who hasn't lost his touch. I wasn't impressed with SHUTTER ISLAND, but on the other hand, not every movie he's made was a sensational hit. He's made several movies that barely made a blip on the radar. THE KING OF COMEDY, KUNDUN...I personally didn't think much of AFTER HOURS, although many people feel that way about BRINGING OUT THE DEAD, which is one of my favorite movies ever. And then he's got "Just okay" movies that were kinda overhyped. CASINO, GANGS OF NEW YORK, etc.but I truly did enjoy THE DEPARTED...I haven't seen THE WOLF OF WALL STREET, but I might give it a try one of these days. I'm greatly looking forward to that movie about missionaries in Japan with Liam Neeson...I do wonder if that's still moving forward...gotta check on that I guess.
Anyway...Just got me thinking b/c I have to wonder about the standards of people who have so much fundamental criticism of a movie like 2016's GHOSTBUSTERS and then try and defend it like "It's not terrible." BATMAN & ROBIN isn't terrible. No movie that costs $100M+ is going to be terrible. That still doesn't excuse the lack of greatness that Hollywood is providing us. The talent is there. If Hollywood had an application process, I'd say they're not hiring. But that's not the case. They are hiring. They're just being very lazy in who they hire. They aren't looking for people who will get the job done right. They're just looking to get the job done and the end result is Hollywood being a con artistry...how many times does one get fooled before they start sharing the blame?
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