Super stimulated as of late. I feel nerved to the outer extremities with finger tapping pulse pounding EXCITEMENT! I don't even know why half the time. It's gotta be the increase in Cymbalta my psychiatrist recommended. I'm feeling a lot more optimistic overall, although still plauged with paranoia and feelings of sadness and/or melencholi (sp????rrrrrr)
January 7th -- Day one of good news to be
JOKER comes out on DVD and Blu ray and can be rented from Redbox. I'm assuming it'll also then be available for rent at Amazon etc.
January 28th -- TERMINATOR: DARK FATE (the "other" Terminator 3) comes to video!!!!!!!!
February 2020 CLOCKERS makes it's "took you long enough" debut on Blu ray. One of my favorite movies. Stylistically it reminds me of BRINGING OUT THE DEAD. Martin Scorsese was tapped to direct CLOCKERS and he did produce it, but I don't know how those two movies so manage to pull me in and throw me around for a whirl. I guess CLOCKERS connects with me personally because I grew up with gang violence being a very pervasive presence nearby where I lived in central California, in Monteray County. Seaside, CA was the worst. It was kind of an issue in Salinas as well. Seaside waso bad in the '80s that my mom did everything she could to get my father to pack up and move us somewhere else. It got a lot better after someone having a picnic ended up getting shot by a stray bullet in a gun fight. It still wasn't exactly a safe place to live per se when I'd left there for Missouri at age 13, in the summer of 1997.
As for BRINGING OUT THE DEAD, I guess I relate to it because it's basically about a guy who has a hard time adjusting to his change of circumstance. He starts out as a medic, thinking he can help those in need and he succeeds well, but ends up in a dry season, where his ability as a medic isn't put on display for anyone to see. His patients either die on the way to the hospital or before he can assess their situation well enough to help them. I was like that in some way back when I was a little child. I had a "psychotic breakdown" when I was about 8 years old and most people would ask what happened to cause it and I simply can't explain it. The number of negative life changes occurring just was too much for me to take at that time. My father leaving, the change in address, the dog having to be re-homed, everything, it just got to be too much and even though I'd been medicated for a couple years at that point, I wasn't able to be treated with regular parenting. I ended up staying 2 months in a psychiatric ward and another couple years in a temporary living situation. My mom says the temporary living situation should have been much more temporary (less than a year) but the doctors were not medicating me effectively and the staff were only concerned with pissing me off because they were told by someone high up that it would be good for me and my anger issues I did eventually get a sort of talking to about how to better handle being picked on etc., but that was a long time coming. Nobody ever went over that stuff with me. They just tormented me and watched me suffer in glad joy and I just kept suffering and wishing they would pity me instead of prey on me. I had the same kind of reaction to the radical change in family dynamics that occurred in the early '00s. I was an atheist who eventually became a believer who didn't believe because it was too horrifying to be true. I eventually after a decade of raising my fist at God, figuratively speaking, came to the conclusion that A) this circling around of hate and justification of disbelief was not healthy and was not going to end and B) If The Bible is true, I have no way of ceasing such fact from existing. And after a little bit of a rocky start, still a little bumpy, I feel much more relaxed and at peace with myself and God. I know that He is love and the only reason so few people will see Heaven and Eternal Life is because mankind is so against His love. You see it in people's raising of their children. So many people are sparing the rod and spoiling their children. One of the proverbs goes so far as to say something to the effect of a child without a good ass whooping is better off dead.
FOUND IT--Proverbs 13:24
JULY 10 2020
GHOSTBUSTERS AFTERLIFE!!!!!!
JUN - AUG 2020 ----- GHOSTBUSTERS TOYS!!! WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!
BRINGING OUT THE DEAD still not scheduled for release on Bluray as far as I know.
THE REAL GHOSTBUSTERS toys from Kenner might be gettting reproduced for TO-DAY but I haven't heard any official confirmation. Some listings popped up at DeepDiscount.com including something that sounds very similar to an unproduced concept that had been in the pipeline but never got put into action until it was too late. A prototype was made up but Kenner bigwhigs had already decided to pull the plug on the RGB toy line. There weren't any details on the listings that DeepDiscount had up. They were taken down a few days later. GhostbustersNews.com had a post on their site and at Twitter about it, but that got removed as well. I asked Jason at GBNewsdotcom why he deleted the post and I GUESS it must be kind of a mib hush hush thing. Like "NEVERMIND ---- You didn't see what you're claiming I posted on my website. IT - NEVER - HAPPENED!"
tHE RELEASE date DeepDiscount had posted was August. I don't know if they'rell be any other Hasbro delicacies popping up before then or not. There were a couple that were supposed to come in May actually, if I recall correctly.
The rest of 2020 is devoted to GB toys.
I have a preorder at Bullmoose.com in place for GHOSTBUSTERS LEGACY: THE MAKING OF GHOSTBUSTERS I & II by Matt McAlister (who I have no knowledge regarding, I'm just assuming he was hired for a valid reason). Books is supposed to ship June 2nd of 2020. So there's that.
Man. 2020 is full of great things.
Even if Jesus shows up before it happens, I can at least say I had something to be excited about. I kinda doubt he'll show up out of the blue like that. Revelation details this fairly well. I don't know for a fact that it's all in chronological order. There's a section that talks about something like a book with seven seals or something like that. Jesus riding in on a cloud is supposed to be toward the end of the 7 seals, but why each seal is numbered the way it is is not known and maybe God had in mind for that to be the chronological order but there's no promise or statement of such being so. It's possible that God may delay Jesus' coming way longer. I don't think mankind has stooped any lower than it's previously been known to. I think maybe the surge in persecution of Christians overall throughout the world might be an indication of The Signs that Jesus talks about. I think it'll probably get so bad that even in the U.S., things will become much worse than they presently are. And I don't think the time is that far off. People who have had the Gospel given to them as young children are much weaker in their ability to abide in the Holy Spirit than they were 50 years ago. With all the drug culture and rampant pornography being thrown about throughtout the 70's and 80's, many people after leaving home were seduced and slowly, but quicker than they perhaps thought they would have, fell away. Some of them came back, but crawling back to God is sometimes harder than it should be. I'm still finding it difficult after 5 years in church to shave off my old nature and put on the full armor of God.
I'm fine with God returning whenever he wishes to. I know i can't demand to live long enough to see a movie that might not even be all that great in theaters and/or on video. I mean, really --- despite the anticipation and the very real possibility that GB:AFterlife will indeed be a jolly good time of a movie, it still could A) suck balls B) end up kinda "meh" or C) end up 2 or 3 serious notches below the bar set by Ghostbusters II which was not that high to begin with. Then of course there's D) which is it could trump the original. Fat chance. Most likely it'll be at least as good as Ghostbusters II although it obviously will be a very different movie. It takes place in a rural setting whereas GBII was all about the bright lights and big citiness of NYC circa 1988/1989. Also of note: If God permits his citizens to watch movies --- or if some of His citizens insist on watching cinema --- ------- GB: Afterlife can "live on" in Heaven, with the most creative person you'll ever meet at the helm. When God says cut, the Angels better do it right!
