the confusing layers

still  failing to FIGHT against sin.  I'm still finding myself not really wanting to.  I hope and continually ask God for a different reality.  Maybe I'm too quick to "change the subject" after doing so.  Maybe I have too much doubt.  Maybe I move on too quickly to some other activity and fail to soak in the GOODNESS of His willingness to help me.
Ug.  Well...to the best of my knowledge there is tomorrow..........where I'll be trying to serve God and PLEASE GOD, ACCEPT MY SERVICE AS UNTO YOU AND INFUSE ME WITH YOUR SPIRIT SO THAT I MAY BE A GOOD STEWARD OF THIS VESSEL YOU'VE BESTOWED UPON ME.