He's as high as a kite!!~

Super stimulated as of late.  I feel nerved to the outer extremities with finger tapping pulse pounding EXCITEMENT!  I don't even know why half the time.  It's gotta be the increase in Cymbalta my psychiatrist recommended.  I'm feeling a lot more optimistic overall, although still plauged with paranoia and feelings of sadness and/or melencholi (sp????rrrrrr)

January 7th  -- Day one of good news to be
JOKER comes out on DVD and Blu ray and can be rented from Redbox.  I'm assuming it'll also then be available for rent at Amazon etc.

January 28th -- TERMINATOR: DARK FATE (the "other" Terminator 3) comes to video!!!!!!!!

February 2020 CLOCKERS makes it's "took you long enough" debut on Blu ray.  One of my favorite movies.  Stylistically it reminds me of BRINGING OUT THE DEAD.  Martin Scorsese was tapped to direct CLOCKERS and he did produce it, but I don't know how those two movies so manage to pull me in and throw me around for a whirl.  I guess CLOCKERS connects with me personally because I grew up with gang violence being a very pervasive presence nearby where I lived in central California, in Monteray County.  Seaside, CA was the worst.  It was kind of an issue in Salinas as well.  Seaside waso bad in the '80s that my mom did everything she could to get my father to pack up and move us somewhere else.  It got a lot better after someone having a picnic ended up getting shot by a stray bullet in a gun fight.  It still wasn't exactly a safe place to live per se when I'd left there for Missouri at age 13, in the summer of 1997.

As for BRINGING OUT THE DEAD, I guess I relate to it because it's basically about a guy who has a hard time adjusting to his change of circumstance.  He starts out as a medic, thinking he can help those in need and he succeeds well, but ends up in a dry season, where his ability as a medic isn't put on display for anyone to see.  His patients either die on the way to the hospital or before he can assess their situation well enough to help them.  I was like that in some way back when I was a little child.  I had a "psychotic breakdown" when I was about 8 years old and most people would ask what happened to cause it and I simply can't explain it.  The number of negative life changes occurring just was too much for me to take at that time.  My father leaving, the change in address, the dog having to be re-homed, everything, it just got to be too much and even though I'd been medicated for a couple years at that point, I wasn't able to be treated with regular parenting.  I ended up staying 2 months in a psychiatric ward and another couple years in a temporary living situation.  My mom says the temporary living situation should have been much more temporary (less than a year) but the doctors were not medicating me effectively and the staff were only concerned with pissing me off because they were told by someone high up that it would be good for me and my anger issues  I did eventually get a sort of talking to about how to better handle being picked on etc., but that was a long time coming.  Nobody ever went over that stuff with me.  They just tormented me and watched me suffer in glad joy and I just kept suffering and wishing they would pity me instead of prey on me.  I had the same kind of reaction to the radical change in family dynamics that occurred in the early '00s.  I was an atheist who eventually became a believer who didn't believe because it was too horrifying to be true.  I eventually after a decade of raising my fist at God, figuratively speaking, came to the conclusion that A) this circling around of hate and justification of disbelief was not healthy and was not going to end and B) If The Bible is true, I have no way of ceasing such fact from existing.  And after a little bit of a rocky start, still a little bumpy, I feel much more relaxed and at peace with myself and God.  I know that He is love and the only reason so few people will see Heaven and Eternal Life is because mankind is so against His love.  You see it in people's raising of their children.  So many people are sparing the rod and spoiling their children.  One of the proverbs goes so far as to say something to the effect of a child without a good ass whooping is better off dead.
  FOUND IT--Proverbs 13:24


JULY 10 2020
GHOSTBUSTERS AFTERLIFE!!!!!!
JUN - AUG 2020 ----- GHOSTBUSTERS TOYS!!! WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

BRINGING OUT THE DEAD still not scheduled for release on Bluray as far as I know.
THE REAL GHOSTBUSTERS toys from Kenner might be gettting reproduced for TO-DAY but I haven't heard any official confirmation.  Some listings popped up at DeepDiscount.com including something that sounds very similar to an unproduced concept that had been in the pipeline but never got put into action until it was too late.  A prototype was made up but Kenner bigwhigs had already decided to pull the plug on the RGB toy line.  There weren't any details on the listings that DeepDiscount had up.  They were taken down a few days later.  GhostbustersNews.com had a post on their site and at Twitter about it, but that got removed as well.  I asked Jason at GBNewsdotcom why he deleted the post and I GUESS it must be kind of a mib hush hush thing.  Like "NEVERMIND ---- You didn't see what you're claiming I posted on my website.  IT - NEVER - HAPPENED!"

tHE RELEASE date DeepDiscount had posted was August.  I don't know if they'rell be any other Hasbro delicacies popping up before then or not.  There were a couple that were supposed to come in May actually, if I recall correctly.

The rest of 2020 is devoted to GB toys.

I have a preorder at Bullmoose.com in place for GHOSTBUSTERS LEGACY: THE MAKING OF GHOSTBUSTERS I & II by Matt McAlister (who I have no knowledge regarding, I'm just assuming he was hired for a valid reason).  Books is supposed to ship June 2nd of 2020.  So there's that.
Man.  2020 is full of great things.
Even if Jesus shows up before it happens, I can at least say I had something to be excited about.  I kinda doubt he'll show up out of the blue like that.  Revelation details this fairly well.  I don't know for a fact that it's all in chronological order.  There's a section that talks about something like a book with seven seals or something like that.  Jesus riding in on a cloud is supposed to be toward the end of the 7 seals, but why each seal is numbered the way it is is not known and maybe God had in mind for that to be the chronological order but there's no promise or statement of such being so.  It's possible that God may delay Jesus' coming way longer.  I don't think mankind has stooped any lower than it's previously been known to.  I think maybe the surge in persecution of Christians overall throughout the world might be an indication of The Signs that Jesus talks about.  I think it'll probably get so bad that even in the U.S., things will become much worse than they presently are.  And I don't think the time is that far off.  People who have had the Gospel given to them as young children are much weaker in their ability to abide in the Holy Spirit than they were 50 years ago.  With all the drug culture and rampant pornography being thrown about throughtout the 70's and 80's, many people after leaving home were seduced and slowly, but quicker than they perhaps thought they would have, fell away.  Some of them came back, but crawling back to God is sometimes harder than it should be.  I'm still finding it difficult after 5 years in church to shave off my old nature and put on the full armor of God.
I'm fine with God returning whenever he wishes to.  I know i can't demand to live long enough to see a movie that might not even be all that great in theaters and/or on video.  I mean, really --- despite the anticipation and the very real possibility that GB:AFterlife will indeed be a jolly good time of a movie, it still could A) suck balls B) end up kinda "meh" or C) end up 2 or 3 serious notches below the bar set by Ghostbusters II which was not that high to begin with.  Then of course there's D) which is it could trump the original.  Fat chance.  Most likely it'll be at least as good as Ghostbusters II although it obviously will be a very different movie.  It takes place in a rural setting whereas GBII was all about the bright lights and big citiness of NYC circa 1988/1989.  Also of note: If God permits his citizens to watch movies --- or if some of His citizens insist on watching cinema --- ------- GB: Afterlife can "live on" in Heaven, with the most creative person you'll ever meet at the helm.  When God says cut, the Angels better do it right!

Ghostbusters 35th anniversary steelbook

Originally a 5 disc set, I only have need for 3 of the discs.  I have the other 2 discs w/ the steelbook offered for sale @ Amazon, seller name being realgobutter

My sister gave it to me for my 36th birthday.  I haven't used it much, just more of an idea type thing, like "Why don't I own this?!", like the kind of thing that just makes perfect sense for me to own, even though an argument can be made to the contrary as well.

My mom gave me some good quality housepants so that my regular pants will hopefully live longer.  They're nice pants, so there's no need to wear them when I have nowhere I'm planning on going, which is most of the time.

My gramma got me a $20 bill and a card.  Was nice because I otherwise would have had no money to give to the church.  Not exactly an act that reeks of my esteem, but I know that's not the point anyway.  The humble will be exalted and the reverse being true as well.  I'm a litttle humble, a lot less so than I'd like.

Anyway.
Got my meager list of Christmas gift recipients checked off almost a month ago.  I still need to package them (basically).  Wasn't a whole lot of thought put into it.  Just needed to set aside the funds to do it.

My mom and my sister are heading out Wednesday to visit my gramma and some of her family -- two sons and a granddaughter from her biological daughter, who is now deceased, r.i.p.  There might be other people there, hard to say.  Obviously, my grandmothers' family is much larger than those 3 people, but they are usually present whereas the rest of her family is a bit futher away.

I kind of feel bad about not going, but I really don't know how much pet sitting would cost.  It seems like it'd be AT LEAST $150.  If I could rely on it being so little, I might just go with, depending on what my sister thinks of her & her husband's finances, but I'm thinking a good round of pet sitting would cost around $200 at least.  My cat would probably be OK with me being gone 4-5 days.  She really doesn't need anyone for anything, although she really likes companionship.  She can survive on a little food put in her bowl each day, roughly 1/2 a cup.  I usually put it in there twice.  My sister's dog is the real question mark.  He's so wishy washy about his business.  He'd probably be OK too, just getting out to go potty 3 or 4 times a day.  I don't know if the house would survive on just 3 outside trips.  Soemone would probably need to leave him outside and be mindful enough of the effects of weather on him, to let him back in when it gets too cold.
Anyway.
hmm...not sure what else there is to talk about.
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Aw, quac, Batman!

MAN OF STEEL was a great film very much in the vein of THE DARK KNIGHT TRILOGY.  I don't understand how the science of MOS is flawed by any means.  Maybe it is.  But TDK trilogy is not any more realistic than MAN OF STEEL, keeping in mind that scientifically flawed is not the same thing as unbelievable.  Scientists say there is no God simply because they haven't proven the existence of an invisible all powerful entity of any kind.  Gee, go figure.  Science, on the other hand, has never proven the non existence of an invisible all powerful entity, which is something scientists don't seem to understand.  Nothing in The Bible has been scientifically disproven.  The suppositions of scientists are un-Biblical and therefore they've come up with alternate theories and "Facts" to counter what The Bible says.  So when someone says Man of Steel is scientifically flawed, I don't even know who to believe.  I hard one guy say that 2001: A SPACE ODDYSEY should have been more thoroughly researched because space ships are a lot smaller than they are on 2001: A SPACE ODYSSEY.  Yes, it was optimistic of the filmmakers to assume we'd be travelling to deep space by 2001 or any point close to that, but given the optimism about getting to Mars, only 20 years after 2001 was supposed to have taken place, how far fetched is it to further believe that in another 20 years we'll have space ships with enough room for people to build buffet dining areas and good size rooms for folks to roam around?  2001 was a place holder title.  It wasn't meant to be a prophecy.  It wasn't a Nostrademeous (sp??) calculation of the future.  It was a warning about the dangers of mankind's reliance on technology.  Not only did the A.I. machine overtake the spaceship, but it had developed a more authentic humanity than the people in the movie.  At least that's what some people say.  Acting was so wooden in the '50's and '60's, I have a hard time discerning what the portrayal of the people in the movie was supposed be to perceived as.
But anyway.  MAN OF STEEL was obviously meant to kick off a new era of SUPERMAN movies.  So it's really annoying to see them immediately follow it up with that stupider than stupid DAWN OF JUSTICE film.  Not only did they disregard the DARK KNIGHT trilogy as cannon with the MAN OF STEEL film, they portrayed Batman as a worthless soul full of murderous hate with no redeeming qualities about him.  And then they haphazardly introduce Wonder Woman toward the end just appearing out of nowhere.  I didn't make it that far into the movie.  I just thought the whole thing was beyond stupid.  The reasoning behind severing the movie from TDK was ludacrous.  Superman is an alien.  Given that, there's nothing fantastical about his portrayal in MAN OF STEEL.  The only thing potentially fantastical about the movie is that he is an alien.  Don't believe in aliens?  Can't fathom the cocnept?  Fine.  Don't watch MAN OF STEEL *or* DAWN OF JUSTICE.  Most people can at least entertain the notion of aliens.  At least I would hope so.  Maybe most people don't BELIEVE in aliens, but the possibility of aliens is just as real as the possibility of God as depicted in The Bible, who many say negates the possibility that aliens exist........total b.s. btw.  The Bible doesn't mention aliens, but science doesn't mention God.  Is science unreliable because people misinterpret the data at hand or expect the data to reveal more than God intended it to reveal?  If so, you may as well regard mankind's mission to the moon as voodo.  I don't get how one can disregard science.  Science as a culture is unGodly, in large part.  But science as a means of fact finding is not wrong.  Science is really just another word for reason.  You can assume a bunch of stuff that is contradictory or you can examine things carefully and come up with conclusions based on the observations at hand.  Things like the existence of God or the reality of JFK's assasination are not scientifically proven or disproven.  They're just facts that you can argue with or accept.
And then of course they follow MAN OF STEEL up with JUSTICE LEAGUE.  They assume it was the grim tone of MAN OF STEEL that drove people away from it.  So they turn JUSTICE LEAGUE into a multi-verse equivlanet of BATMAN FOREVER (1995).  And surprise surprise the movie also performs poorly at the box office.  Gee, how about quitting while you're ahead?  Warner Bros/DC. rushed into the DCEU as if it was do or die because Marvel studios was taking all kinds of love from the audience.  Warner Bros. makes actual movies.  THE DEPARTED didn't gross $500 million worldwide did it?  No.  It was a reasonably budgeted movie and it was of good quality and it made a decent return on investment.  Why the heck does WB/DC care if their supehero movies are not as well liked as Marvel's?  Martin Scorsese I highly doubt will be seen making an entry into the DCEU or the MCU but you don't see him pining for all the Marvel lovers.

the speed of sleep

PEople always use the example of babies crying to alert their parents to the fact that they need food as an example of people's inherent selfishness, which is equated with sin.
First of all, being selfish is not a sin.
Secondly, babies don't have the mental capacity to understand what greed is and their attention span is too limited to retain that information if they could understand it.

Children don't take very long to embody traits that are man's downfall.  My 3 year old nephew leans on his own understanding far too often and as a result violates the commandment to honor his parents.  However, this 3y/o nephew doesn't understand how to avoid playing too rough with his 1.5 y/o brother to keep from killing him or seriously injuring him.  He also does not know how to read.  His comprehension skills have dramatically improved over the past year and I'm told he has comparatively very high intelligence.

The so-called Age of accountability is not a concrete thing.  People's 1st sin is always idolatry.  If you're not trying to avoid disobeying God it's because you're too focused on other things.  There will be a time when Joseph has enough understanding to avoid breaking any of the 10 Commandments but will he be aware enough of his Creator to do so?  Will he revere his Creator enough and appreciate Him enough to do so?

At 3, my nephew is fast approaching the age of accountability, I do think.  Is he there yet though?  I don't think so.

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I was thinking about my sister's complaint about a chronological Bible that she was having negative feelings toward because, for example, it covers "the triumphant entry" four times in a row.  It's covered in all of the four Gospel accounts, so instead of chronicling it and moving on, it covers the triumphant entry and then covers it again.  The point is to include every last "letter" of God's Word without exception.  That's stupid.  The Bible is chronicled the way it is because God wanted it that way.  It makes sense as it is.  It covers everything you need to know in the order you need to know it.
If you want a timeline of The Bible's events, there's a way to offer that without re-arranging the chapters of The Bible.  The Bible is not written as a timeline.  It's written as nourishment for the soul.  God is not limited by time and space.  We need to look toward Heaven if we want to get there.  Looking at old bones is not going to accomplish anything.

the loss of sin

God forgives a lot.  A disintction is made in The Bible about the love one has toward God based on what (s)he's been forgiven for.  I feel like my effectiveness as a desciple of Christ is rather minimal, partly because of two things:
1) Just about everyone I come across already goes to church;  I don't know how to convince the ones that don't into going
2) (mainly because of point1), I'm privileged enough to know how to live in a civil and civilized manner and have not engaged in murder or anything that would contribute to the murder of anyone (I think).

I am very blessed to have inherited citizenship from a country founded by Christ-minded individuals, as flawed as they were.  The downside of that is I don't know how to make disciples as Jesus commanded.  It probably also hinders me that my mind tends to work harder than my eyes.  I'm constantly looking inward and beyond rather than at the surroundings and often when I try to think of solutions to basic fundamental life situations I come up empty.  I can't imagine what I would do if I saw someone who others might say "This person needs help".  I don't know if I've ever seen one such person and didn't look closely enough or not.

I am guilty of sin.  Don't think living in mainstream USA makes anyone able to walk away from God.  Mankind isn't meant to be Godless.  Even if we weren't sinful, we would need God.  We were not created to be independent.  Nobody IS independent.  Nobody is obligated to have a job position open.  Job positions do open up and if you apply for it, you are not promised acceptance.  Your skillset and your ability to convey what your skillset is and how greatly endowed with it you are can always be outdone by someone.  Even if you're the best of the best, your skillset and quality thereof is not your own making.  God can build you up just as easily as he will eventually destroy this dark world.  He builds up many people, even those who spend their whole life in denial of His existence.

I don't claim to understand how or why God chooses what He does or how some people are Chosen and others aren't and what the fate of the everyday person is.  I don't know for an absolute fact that making desciples is the ONLY way to invite others to God's Kingdom.  As mysterious as God is to Christians, would it not be possible for someone to know God enough apart from Christ?  Surely Adam and Eve knew God.  Noah knew God and Moses did as well.  Many people of the 12 tribes of Israel knew God.  I only know that their knowledge of God existed because The Bible makes note of it.  I have no idea what the villagers of Africa and modern day Asia were doing.  I doubt it was much different than the fruitless superstitions of the nations that surrounded Israel for the most part.
The sad thing is many who know God still don't have any intention of honoring God.  This is documented heavily in the entries of The Bible that are placed after, mainly 1st and 2nd Samuel, Kings and Chronicles.  Kings and Chronicles begin so happily almost like a fairy tale then things get so grim you almost can't stand it.  I think that's partly why Chronicles 1 & 2 are included in The Bible despite the bulk of it being recounting the bulk of Kings 1 & 2.  It is helpful to be reminded of how good things used to be or could be even if this situation at hand is far from good.

I'm not exactly sure where I was leading to with all this or if I was leading to something.  It seems like I had a topic sentence in mind but now I"m kind of confused as to what it was or why.  I guess I'll leave it here.
  [insert a head smack for having gone so long w/o posting as my way of presenting a sincere apology....not really, I'm actually typing this.  A pause for a head smack was not made  --- do I seem less sincere?  Sure.  After all, God is faithful to the end inasmuch as there ever is an end.  I am not God.........]\

some serious sheet THE BIG MOVIES list

1. Arrival (2016)
2. Back To The Future (1985)
3. Basket Case (1982)
4. Being There
5. Bringing Out The Dead
6. Candyman (1992)
7. Clockers
8. The Dark Knight Trilogy (2005-2012)
9. E.T.: The Extra-Terrestrial (1982)
10. Forrest Gump
11. Ghostbusters (1984) & Ghostbusters II
12. The Green Mile
13. Heathers (1989)
14. Hellraiser & Hellbound: Hellraiser II
15. The Last Unicorn
16. My Girl (1991)
17. nowhere (1997)
18. Ordinary People
19. Short Circuit
20. Starman (1984)
21. Taxi Driver (1976)
22. Terminator 2: Judgement Day
23. What's Eating Gilbert Grape?

deeper still

I've been wondering lately if I'm on the path to salvation or if I'm actually saved.  People insist you can't lose your salvation, but there's actually parts in The New Testament that talk about salvation as if it were a process.  One little segment, maybe in Hebrews (the book I've been reading lately), says something like urging the folks to finish their salvation or something like that, idk.....need to write these things down when they occur....rrg.  And Jesus says you will be recognized as a desciple if you heal the sick and cast out demons and all this supernatural stuff that you never see happening in this day & age.  Maybe that's because people pray for healing in private and the demons are either stunted by the boldness of Christians or uninterested in the ones who've already fallen away or never were "in" to begin with.  I think Jesus also included prophesying in that, but I'm not 100%...that word could I suppose mean simply being able to decipher truths that other people refuse to or simply cannot understand....idk.  I think prophesying I think seeing visions and all that kind of stuff....I guess that's Old School Propheteering.  Which makes sense since God never wanted to point everybody to His people, but rather he wanted His people to point to Himself.

And I swear my neck has gained two pounds alone this past week.  I swear I saw it jiggle like early this morning or last night, sometime around there...I shaved yesterday. A couple weeks ago I got some decent razors.  I'd been using these like 30 ct doitonce razors that cost like $5 or less a pkg.  I got a reusable handle and 6 blade-cartridges for like $20(ayg!).  I don't know if it was "worth" it, supposing I were the one paying for it with my own money, but it's definitely a nice thing to have.  I seriously could not live in Georgia if I were living by myself.  I don't think there's anywhere that costs less than $500 a month...there might be a studio apartment in some tiny town further out closer to Cobb County like in Acworth or something that might cost like $350 or $400....I don't think there's any reason to expect to find somehting like that though.  Housing in that price range probably gets snatched up as soon as its listed.  And then I would need to pay probably $150/mo for something like Uber.  No matter what need there is of it, I don't think an ability to get everything I need in one shopping trip is going to manifest itself in my living.  That's at least $40 just for one grocery shopping trip (ALDI) and then a return to (stuff I forgot).  Then if I need to do anything else, I either need to pay extra to do it online ($25?) or pay $25++ to go to WalMart or wherever it is I need to go ...if I needed to go to church (which I do) then I'd need to at least set aside $20 in case I can't get a ride to and/or from.  Usually I can't get a ride to.  But I can get a ride back home pretty easily.  Idk..   Might not need $150.  Could probably do fine on $100 or less maybe.  It really depends on the time of day, I would think....I don't have the Uber app, so I don't know for sure.  I've had it on my phone before, I've used it a couple times but I haven't ever routinely used it at any point ever.  

Not even sure why I'm talking about this,  Ithink I had a thought based on something I wrote or was about to write, but it probably would've made more sense to express what that thought was before totally changing the subject all crazy like.

OH....that's right.  I was talking bou the razors.  Yeah.  My sister charges rock bottom rent for me to live in the not quite as nice level of the house.  I don't mind it being not as nice.  I'm not complaining.  I used to live in a rathole of my own making and didn't mind because I was in tune with whatever music or movie I was engaged with at any given time.  I wasn't spending any significant amount of time standing around looking at how clean (or unclean) my room/apartment is.  That's probably something I could have done if I had cleaned it more, it would have given me more opportunities to relax and kick back........enjoy life more...idk.

So anyway.  my face is more shaved than it's ever been, even though there's still some fuzz on my face and a couple tiny spots I missed.  The crazy thing really is how few cuts I've gotten.  I've bled a few tiny spots, maybe 5 or 6, mostly in groups of 2, and they didn't hurt of course and they dried up in no time.  Swizzy!

Back to my original topic, I Just feel like often I lack something. It could be worse, I guess.  I don't know if I feel as shallow as I did a few years ago.  I guess I'm just greedy sometimes.  I mainly just worry that I'm slipping away too often.  I keep indulging my eyeballs and watching stuff that I shouldn't watch (lest thee haf a namest!) and I don't know why but it seems to be the culprit, if Biblical teachings are any indication.  I guess I should quit asking why.  It seems absurd.  What's absurd really is the fact that I'm not married.  I'm not married because I'm impatient and I eat way too damn much.  I get impatient with weight loss.  I get impatient with cravings for food.  I get impatient with finances.  What I need to do is read The Bible, take a break AS NEEDED (not as I please) and then read The Bible some more.  That sounds incredibly narrow.  What's this about a Narrow Gate?  Oh........

Young ignorance's collector's box

The REM cd here is actually ok imo.  It's not wholesome per se but it's not downright dirtu either.  Some of the fondest days of my adolescent and early adult years consisted of these CDs.  I usually listen to newer stuff or occasionally think of a classic that i haven't listened to in a good long while or that I'd previously not given much attention to.  These CDs here if / when i buy them probably won't make a lot of sense in the context of the rest of my CD collection.  They would however fit nicely in a box somewhere within reach that i can open and look at.  The front and rear graphics of the CD ROCKS, as simple as it is, is damn iconic.  

Three of these in fact i remember buying at the music store within the mall at Salinas CA.  The Offspring SMASH Kiss YOU WANTED THE BEST YOU GOT THE BEST and Aerosmith ROCKS.  I used a humongous check my biological father gave me one year for my birthday to buy those.  I had already wrapped myself up in a crazy pattern of selling CDs so i could more and then buying them again.  Rg.  I've gotten better but still got some work2do.  Having God ij my life helps somewhat.  A real big help has been the apparent staying awhile streaming music platforms and the decreased cost of music CDs.  The Bible is a rich book with truly lasting value but I probably prefer to be wound up or at least i feel more inclined to be.  Maybe prefer is an inaccurate word...idk. 

Mind over matter

Here's to a new day in a new month of a relatively new year (even 2017 wasn't really that long ago, ey?)

After reading some scripture yesterday, I feel a little hope that I can focus my energies away from things that hinder my relationship with God & combat temptations as they arise.  I'm going to have to see how that goes.  A mild temptation did arise a moment ago, but it was easy enough to say "no" to. 
  The struggle I'm feeling at this moment here now is: do I mow the lawn or not?  I'm not really physically tired.  My brain is telling me otherwise tho.  It really wants to command my body to sleep but my body is like "screw you!  You can't tell us what to do!"  Idk...my sister said she's also kinda foggy headed this morning (yes, I realize it's afternoon now, but the conversation with my sister was two hours ago roughly HA!)  Anyway...I don't think the lawn needs mowing.  It seems like it should need mowing, considering how long it's gone w/o, and it probably should be mowed, just to make future mowings less messy and time consuming...
idk.  I still have the rest of the day to get that done.

Hmmm...(sigh)

It's not me, I prrromise

It says Kung fu kingdom.
Not kung fuking dom
Just in case anyone was wondering.