My pastor suggested that sexual imoorality / lust was one element of greed. I don't know if I agree with that. When a person gets the urge to have sex, trying to satisfy that desire is not greedy. It's wrong, duh, God says so....it just doesn't resonate with me. I've been trying for the past couple months -- not consecutively or successfully -- to live by that rule of thumb and I had an accountability software installed for that purpose to help be reminded to keep my mind off that facet of reality so that I wouldn't get hot'n'bothered and go searching for t'n'a.
I just sunk again, if that's not already obvious. I don't really have a legitimate reason except I'M TIRED OF THIS! Obviously I shouldn't be. Any emotional or intellectual opposition I have to keeping off sex until/unless I get married is just me not submitting to God. There's no excuse for that. I feel like me being born evil and not being completely stripped of my evil nature serves as a sort of excuse, but it isn't.
Ug.
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