Well.....................................................................
My determination is still kinda "meh". I don't know if I'd call myself complacent or what......just..idk.
About ... 2 weeks? Maybe a little less
ago
I signed up for this site that enables people to connect for casual sex. I really don't forsee it happening any other way. But anyway. Yesterday I deleted that account. I was arguing against doing it in my head because I had paid $15.00 for 3 months access and after I continued thinking about it, I decided it's money out, it's wasted, and if it's not wasted, it's even worse. That means I've been using my money AND My time and the temple that God has allowed me to be for evil purposes and I've already dishonored God with all 3 of those, but....as far as masturbation goes, at least I can kinda claim ignorance since The Bible doesn't say anything against masturbation. As far as lust goes, that could be considered a defiling of the body, but I don't think lust defiles the body anymoreso than the body already is defiled by the presence of sin that is already within every human being. Yes, looking at erotic cinema and pornography films is definitely not a good idea. I consider that a dishonoring use of my time and money. And the "self abuse" that goes along with it......ya....that's dishonoring to God but I don't think it's AS dishonoring. Paul refers to becoming one flesh with a prostitute. I fail to see how masturbation accomplishes the same thing.
AAAAAAAANyway.
I've been doing better than I was the week before last, but I'm still not where i should be, physically and mentally. It's a long crawl out of the gutter.
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