Weekly recap Friday 21st

 Uyyy
I don't know how to mark my improvement.  Maybe things are slightly better than the week before.  Maybe.  It seems like I did go 2.5 days if not longer without delving into porn, but then I was rummaging through Amazon Prime trying to get the dark corners to the surface....since they don't make it very easy to find the kind of stuff that is audacious enough to really capture my attn.
eeg.  I'm sinking, obviously.  I wonder if I'm just a black sheep, destined to not follow His Voice.

I know I'm not showing the hallmarks of Godly sorrow for I have not been zealous and active in repenting.  I don't know what I'm missing.  I think I understand as much as I "need" to understand...maybe it's a lack of faith.  Maybe I'm just too lazy.  Regardless, I might not make it.  I don't know.