90% off Rhapsody - yeah..

Still a waste of $.  I'd been using ad-supported Rdio all September along with YouTube via my Sony blu ray player.  Rhapsody sent me an offer of THREE MONTHS for $1/mo.  Not bad.  It'll prolly come in handy.  Still confused as they said they'd included "customized recommendations" as part of their pkg, but I guess that's only for the mobile version...I don't see that feature at the desktop site.  They'd had recommendations, but they sucked.  They seldom updated and they relied upon things I'd only listened to a few seconds of.  I guess that's standard across all streaming music services.  I listen to Genesis and they start recommending Phil Collins and Steve Hackett...like, seriously, they think I don't know who Phil Collins is??!  I could see that being the case if I was listening to FOXTROT and SELLING ENGLAND BY THE POUND and leaving DUKE and ABACAB untouched, but when I'm listening to INVISIBLE TOUCH and WE CAN'T DANCE, how much more obvious is it that I would know who Phil Collins is??!
Time for church in another 15 hrs apprx.  I've spent way too much time away from my Bible.  I haven't prayed in almost as much time.  I imagine going to church tomorrow and having it be some surreal nauseating out of body experience...ughm...
I find myself searching high and low for something to await the arrival of in the mail.  Amazon has thousands upon thousands (if not millions) of items.  Only a few of them are attractive, none of them are worth buying that wouldn't deplete my fund.  I have like $18 plus some money for groceries etc....I owed my Mom $60 and my sis $110...I would have $0 but I decided to repay her $55 and the other half in November.
Hmm....that pretty much sums up the day.  Been trying to enjoy music.  Haven't had any luck.  Yesterday I managed to enjoy The Story So Far's WHAT YOU DON'T SEE.  It'd been awhile since I've enjoyed it.  Not a hugenormous amount of time, but probably a couple+ months.
My weight loss is hit and miss.  I did OK for most of the past 7 days.  Then I ate 3500 calories on Thursday.  I cold have cut 1K of those if I'd known how many were in Bob Evan's brioche french toast.  I ordered two servings of it!!  Plus one of their bottomless capuccinos, another 500+ calories I'm sure....
Friday I stopped right about 1900 or something like that, I think...maybe I'm misremembering...I'll have to look again.  Today I've eaten about 2500.  Including about 200%DV (recommended daily intake of) saturated fat(eek!).  It'll take at least 3 days to make up for that one day...weather or not I've managed to make up for the cloggery of the other days past, especially when I was living in my apartment and eating what the fucc ever the HELLLLL!!!z breaking loose!, I've no idea.  I don't keep close enough track....eeee!  Say it with me, eeeeeee!  EEEEE...na, nvm...
(sigh) (literally, I just sighed...and it wasn't just for show either, this is some seriously f8**d sh****!!!!!)

Ok.  Is saying "The End" too dramatic?  Seriously, I see sunshine over the horizon.  It's not THE END.  Just don't have anything more to say.  Nothing positive to counter all this b.s.  Hopefully that will change.  I need to get my emotions in check and just do what God asks me!  READ, PRAY, BE KIND...quit being so boring!!!  Maybe I can partially succeed...even 1/5 would be progress enough, maybe?!!!!?(???????)